there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me

If you can't take the heat, stay out of the kitchen.
Don't effin' blame the chef!

Thursday, September 30, 2004

Mumu Videoke

Lex the UPLB Sis [not the SBC heartbreaker] asked for my assistance to look for employment here in Manila. I used my connections and she took the tests and was interviewed yesterday. I really made sure she'd get the position. By 4pm, she was hired. She's starting on Monday. Yey!

I am so damn happy she's in Manila now. Her office is proximal to mine and we have the same work hours. It means... what else?! New gimik buddy!!!^_^

To kick off her Manila experience, Dumz, Charm and I took her to 65B. The place was all ours! We talked about the LB days which seem decades ago. [When in fact, it was less than a year ago.] We were saying that that moment at 65B is just like old times. Only thing missing was... videoke!!!

So, we had the machine set up and once it was, we went up to the room. I, of course, had to be the first to sing. My forever winning piece is Madonna's Crazy For You. [Just ask my friends how good my rendition of this is]

I punched in the song number and dropped the P5 coin in the slot. Nothing.

We punched in another song but still, silence.

After twenty pesos worth of songs, I called the ever trusty Ate Irna. Then, I texted Brod Bobby [one of the stockholders of the bar] to complain.

He called me up and asked,"May first timer ba sa inyo?", i.e., if anyone with us is at his/her first time to use the videoke. Yup, it's a baptism of sorts to Lex, right? So, Brod Bobby went,"Ay kaya... ganyan talaga yan [videoke machine] pag may bago e." Of course, I thought it was a joke so I laughed it off. When I shared this to the group, they said they did overhear the waiters talking about it too. Hmmm...

I went downstairs to make a call and heard the machine working. I went up to see Charm and Lex freaking out. The speakers were blaring with music but the TV did not show the lyrics [which is the main function of the videoke].

Hey, what the heck happened?!

Apparently, Charm was kidding around and exclaimed,"In Jesus' Name, tutugtog ka!" after which it did! Man, that's freaky.

A few minutes later, the technician arrived and fixed the darn thing. We sang our hearts out until midnight as if nothing happened. We won't let anything get between us and fun!^_^

*.* as if! @ 5:16:00 PM • • RBJ

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Quotable Quote

Carla posted this on the bulletin board on Friendster and I think it's noteworthy. It's shallow in a way but I like how she went about this. No prejudice whatsoever, though. Some might find this offensive but hey, just don't read if you do.

-nagpaalam lalaki sa erpat ko manligaw
-niligawan ako
-ok naman
-sinagot ko
-i discovered indifferences
-nakipagbreak ako dahil ayoko na at di ko na matatagalan
-hindi nya naintindihan
-malabo daw ako
-pinabayaan ko
-like always,everyone gets over everything
-tumahimik na ko
-nagfriendster ako kaninang umaga
-at may message sa kin si cool chic
-nawalwal ang batang ito nang hiwalayan sya ng lalaking namagitan saming dalawa
-kung maaalala ko,matinding paninira ang ginawa ng lalaki sa kanya
-anyway.nagsiraan silang dalawa
-i guess loser nga yata ako dahil pinakawalan ko ang lalakeng yon
-but Jesus, i'd rather be a loser than have him again
-and now he's back home with the people who are just like him
-the richie richie social climbers of alabang
-who never took the UPCAT because they know they're not gonna pass
-who drive their way to places while we walk under the scorching sun to class
-who bribe their teachers to pass a quiz while we praise the Lord for a tres in our classcards
-they don't know how it is to be in the real college
-they're still babies in high school with a fixed schedule and no late exams
-they don't know how it is to deal with creaking chairs and leaking ceilings just to get thru studying
-those f*cking assholes always have their parents around to take care even of their hangovers
-pero putangina!tayong mga nasa UP,nagsusuka tayo sa mga gutter sa kalsada
-nakakadiri tayo pero kakain sila sa palad natin
-mga inutil na bulate

Okeiii, chismis over.^_^

*.* as if! @ 11:18:00 AM • • RBJ

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Thank God for Seatbelts

Remember L-U-D-W-I-G?

Well, thank God he's one heck of an advocate of seatbelts. I have just been told last night that TFD 149 met a tragic fate last week [or last last week? details are still indefinite]. Just imagine what could have happened if his Lancer ended up as a total wreck! I'm itching to investigate about it. Miraculously, Ludwig is in top shape, not even a bruise.

I love that car! *weeps* Hahaha. Well, okeiii, I care about the driver too but that's coz he's THE driver. Kidding aside, I do care about Ludwig; he is, after all, once a part of my life [and my heart. *sniff*]. Plus, he's the first guy to drive me around the metro when I was fresh from my rural experience [read: after a long time of exile at Los Baños. No offense.] so he deserves not to be forgotten.

Here's the freaky thing: coincidentally, I was chatting with Chevy yesterday and I told her I saw Lud's car last Saturday at around 11pm along Coastal Road. For the mercy of God, I did! It's impossible since from I what gathered, the car IS a total wreck. How did that happen?

I bet my life it was Lud's. How can I forget that plate number, what with the pnemonics we came up with for it. How can I forget that karplus sticker on the rear windshield, and the chinese character on the backseat window. Oh well, no use trying to figure that out now. But, could some unknown being have been sending me the message that something came up with Lud? That's a laugh.

Anyway, he has Steph to worry about him now. Yes, they are officially together now. Poor Pupu.

Oh, here's an {UPDATE}...

*.* as if! @ 3:53:00 PM • • RBJ

Monday, September 27, 2004

This Time, I WILL Watch

First was Incubus.

Then, Linkin Park.

Then, Hoobastank.

Then, Blue [Kidding! *chuckles*].

These are artists I passed on the chance to watch perform live. Except for Blue which I'd never watch even if they gave me free backstage passes.

Slipknot on November 13 at Amoranto Stadium. At Php500-1000! Woohoo! I wouldn't be in such a hurry to buy tickets near the stage, though. I can very much do well with the 500. I still want to live after the concert. Hehehe.

*.* as if! @ 5:13:00 PM • • RBJ

Battle of the Greek Letters

Not really... I just thought it'll be funny with that title. But of course, this is all about Narcissism.

This is me --> SB

This is who I met --> USF

This is the OTHER --> DLS

It was Tommy's birthday at Sibil, Tomas Morato last Saturday and I just had to go coz he's Angeli's brod and of course, she would be there and I missed my Bes so much. I got there around midnight, after such a petrifying cab ride coz Tomas Morato is soooo effin' near to my place. Sheesh, the things I do for fun.

The first thing Bes said to me was, "Bes, may gwapo sa loob!". Obviously, the guy IS good-looking coz Bes's sisses were all over him. Mr. Appetizer for the night is Ovi's blocmate who transferred to Diliman on their sophomore year.

USF was introduced to me 10,000 times. If I were assuming, I'd think he was totally pressuring everyone to push himself towards me. But I'm not. At that point, I still had no idea he's a USF. How would I? Though he sure looked like the part with his neatly-pressed polo, freshly-polished black shoes and perfectly-gelled hair.

Bes and I talked for a while, loading ourselves up with Cuervo. [Yes, Angeli did drink alcohol. Congratulations!] Everytime I turned, USF was standing behind me. Coincidence? Maybe.

When we got on our feet, he suddenly showed up beside us. Now, Ninoy's a perfect embodiment of a jealous boyfriend so he stayed by Bes's side. USF turned to me and blurted,"Baka naman sa 'yo may magagalit rin." to which i replied with a shrug and a *ahem* naughty smile.

Actually, I wasn't playing hard-to-get at all but I decided to keep some distance between us coz of all the attention he's getting from Angeli's sisses. We wouldn't want to get on the best friend's sisses' bad side by being the girl who snagged the most coveted guy now, would we? Plus, while he stayed at my side, DLS stayed at HIS side. The fact about DLS I knew coz Bes told me last year that she was their sorority's head then.

USF and I chatted a little and that's when the little trivia about him slipped. I went,"No effin' way! I'm SB!". He just smiled but didn't stop saying,"OMG. I never thought I'd meet a SB tonight, all the less be with one!" for the rest of the night.

You know how I am, I never stay at one spot for more than 10 minutes at a time so I occasionally escaped from USF to go around. This is the funny part. Everytime I went back, I'd find DLS beside USF but she would leave the scene after seeing me. Man, t'was crazy!

Feeling ko tuloy ang haba-haba ng hair ko... *evil laugh*

Tommy wanted to kidnap me again but I stayed behind to hang out with USF and some guy [i.e. insignificant person] some more until we wrapped things up and headed home at 730. AM. Surprise.

*.* as if! @ 2:14:00 PM • • RBJ

Saturday, September 25, 2004

You Got It Bad

It's sad when you realize that you have closed all your doors because you have already chosen the one to whom you'll give the key to, someone you have no certainty would accept it.

I was at CG last night and this guy John who Syanta introduced just recently [who I will introduce to y'all in another post] confessed how much I blow his mind. Get this, he said the first thing that made him attach the strings to me was my ability to speak english well, and to use slang words at that [Thank you, Chevy!^_^]. That's new. No one's ever used that line before.

Further, he said that not only am I interesting, I'm mysterious as well, i.e., he has no idea what I'll come up with next. Like, when he first saw me, he thought I was all goody-goody coz I stood there, sipping my Weng-Weng, seeming to be out of place. Five minutes later, I was on the ledge hyping up the crowd!

In a nutshell, he said a lot of wonderful things that he likes about me and what separates these from the rest is that his friends with us, boys and girls alike, said that he's one picky guy when it comes to girls. As in, he doesn't talk shit compliments just to woo a girl. In fact, they've never seen John with a girl at CG before that's why they're all nice to me coz if John stuck to my side the whole night, I must be one heck of a girl. [which of course, we all know for sure already. lolz]

It's all good; I would've had a lot of fun. I think John's cool. But as what I always say, what I think is different from what I feel. I was with John physically but make a wild guess who was in my head the whole time with Usher's You got it bad in the background.

Everything John did only made me think of everything P.A. did. Like, when John followed me outside to wait for Syanta, my head filled up with images of when P.A., being the rocker and biggest insult-generator for hifhof that he is, followed me to the dancefloor coz Chevy and the other girls didn't.

When John undid the top button of his shirt coz of the heat, I thought of P.A. closing the top button of his polo shirt and how I tried the whole night to undo it. I smiled when I remembered his smirk when I told him he looked too preppy when it's closed.

Yep, that song pretty much sums it all up. I would've set it up to be this blog's background but I'm feeling Hoobastanky today [whose song playing now is a perfect soundtrack nonetheless]. Maybe sometime in the future I will.

...You know you got it bad
when you're out with someone
but you keep on thinking `bout
somebody else...

*.* as if! @ 8:50:00 PM • • RBJ

Friday, September 24, 2004


My latest favorite movie!^_^

Yah, I know, t'was from 2001 but I just saw it recently. Selma Blair is a goddess!

To be continued...

For now, click here.

*.* as if! @ 3:41:00 PM • • RBJ

Thursday, September 23, 2004

All's Well that Ends Well

Today, two rather peculiar incidents resulted to well-appreciated discoveries.


I used to regularly eat lunch at Kaye Ryan Grill, a restaurant across the street from our building. But, that changed since Lorry's Kitchen opened just beside the building. [side note: They serve the best Hot, Sweet & Spicy Chicken Fillets! As in, BTS! Yum.]

Today, Vic and I decided to eat lunch at Kaye Ryan again since I set up a meeting with a contractor there at 1pm. We got there by 12:10 and ordered Relyenong Talong for me and Chicken Chopsuey for Vic. We waited... and waited... and waited...

Our food was served at 12:45. Actually, not entirely served because right after the waiter set my food on the table, he lost balance of the tray and Vic's food crashed to the floor! The waiter stood still for a minutes while scratching his head before turning to us and saying,"Sorry po".

I'm normally a calm and reasonable girl but what can you do when you're hungry and on a tight schedule?! I took a look at Vic, who is normally this bitchy man who growls at any sign of incompetence but was obviously to stunned to growl at that time, gathered my bag and left the resto. I think my move stunned Vic even more coz when he caught up with me outside, all we can both muster was laugh. He kept saying,"Iba ka rin noh" to which I replied,"Actually, I walked out before you could utter mean things at the boy which I was 100% certain you would have done."

So, anyway, to the good part. We had no choice but to transfer to Lorry's. We were ordering at the counter when this guy called Vic. There were three of them and as it turns out, they are some of Vic's friends during their younger years. They are dentists and hold clinic in the same building! [as Lorry's] One has a strong resemblance to BND [which made me wonder whatever happened to that lousy architect]. Another plays badminton and is a member of Yonex, a members-only court proximal to the office. Quite good finds!^_^

Now, being tended to by a clumsy waiter isn't so bad anymore.


I was on my way home, waiting for a MIA bus at Taft MRT station. I rode one [or so I thought] and was a bit puzzled why it was jam-packed, which has never happened before.

I was standing on the aisle and the conductor asked for my fare just as we passed by Heritage Hotel. I gave him nine bucks and he asked where I was getting off."Tambo", I said. That's when I found out I rode the wrong bus! The conductor was kind enough not to take my fare [perhaps he pitied stupid people] and made me get off at Coastal Mall. I thanked him but numerous cusses flooded my head. WTF?! That's, like, a mile to where I usually hail a jeep. And I have to go up the foot bridge! Aaaargh!

Boy, was I surprised to find a JEEPNEY TERMINAL right at the bottom of the foot bridge as opposed to having to nudge and dodge a million elbows just to catch a jeep from where I usually do. Phew!

Now, not reading bus destination signs clearly with 50/50 vision isn't so bad anymore.

*.* as if! @ 9:40:00 PM • • RBJ

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Helen of Truy?

It's launch not lunch, dummy.

When you say a girl has face that could lunch a thousand ships, it's not flattering. It's sick. Who would want to eat a thousand ships for lunch? Or did I get it wrong? Did you mean people would want to eat a thousand ships for lunch upon seeing her face? But then, you could have meant a thousand sheep. That would even be more insulting.

Bottomline: Don't try to sweep a girl off her feet with profoundness if you have no idea what you're talking about.

*.* as if! @ 2:30:00 PM • • RBJ

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Cheers to My Twin!!!

I'm sleepy and I have no intention to blog but I just found out that Chevy passed the first round of auditions for SCQ!!! Woohoo!!! She was one of the 30 who were chosen from the 90 who tried out.

Damn, girl! You really want to go back to the P.I. THAT soon, huh?^_^

For details of her audition, check out her blog.

*.* as if! @ 11:09:00 PM • • RBJ

Friday, September 17, 2004


This new show on primetime television has started a whole new movement. It's the "GLBT, Come out; come out wherever you are!" movement. I couldn't appreciate it more. Finally, Filipinos are becoming more open-minded and receptive with regards to this issue.

The shock of a lifetime came a week ago. Two of my hot hot hot guy friends came OUT! They have boyfriends! We were all, "WTF? No way!" We weren't actually that shocked with one, though, coz we've had gut-feelings about him since high school.

The other guy is a different story. He's the most effable in the group. He leaves goo goo eyed girls at his wake. He's downright HOT. And now, he has a boyfriend. And, we're cool with it.

Actually, we're not. Coz HE HAS A BOYFRIEND! And we don't. Unfair!>_<

*.* as if! @ 2:38:00 PM • • RBJ

This Kiss

I’ve kissed a guy... I’ve kissed guys. I just haven’t felt that thing.... That thing... that moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy, and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift. And you wanna laugh and you wanna cry, ‘cause you feel so lucky that you’ve found it, and so scared that it’ll go away all at the same time.


Honda Civic, Pajamas, blue umbrella, rain and NU 107 - elements of my perfect moment. But of course, the major and most significant element is him.

My heart is still racing. Seems HE gave ME atrial fibrillation back. I haven't felt this kind of comforting happiness for quite some time.

But I find myself asking which I should choose, my pride or this happiness. What the heck, I don't need pride. I'm trying hard not to let my super ego take over this time. Take it away, id!

I'm laying all my cards on the table. For the first time, I shall drop all my inhibitions and embrace this feeling, this happiness. Readers, prepare for a major depression once this expires.*sigh*


May I just mention that it took me three times [!!!] just to publish this post? Is it a sign that I shouldn't have? Oh well.

*.* as if! @ 1:16:00 PM • • RBJ

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

Some-kinda-but-not-quite EB

Oh wow! Six entries in a day!^_^

This is gonna be the last. Ton said he WILL write something tomorrow. Just want to beat him to it!
My first face-to-face encounter with a fellow blogger.

At Starbucks, 1830 hours.

*Through text*
Floi: "Prankster? You were the one who asked me! Duh! I recognized your voice!"
*Ton called Floi*
Ton: "Huh? I'm at the baggage check."
Floi: "Oh, be right there.Ü"
Ton: "You're weird."

At Cibo, 1850 hours.

Floi: "Hey, what do you call this?" *pointing to our table*
Ton: "Uh, Metal?"
Floi: "No. Players' Circle."

Ton: "Oh, are you a player?"
Floi: "Duh!"
Ton: "I'm not a player. I just like playing with my image."
Floi: "A player, nonetheless!"

Ton: "Why did you agree to meet up?"
Floi: "I have no idea." I guess I misplaced my sanity for a moment there when           I ok-ed your invitation. Kidding!

I honestly had fun! The good conversation's a breath of fresh air from work's toxicity. Oh, and just so you know, you can have my bread anytime.^_^

*.* as if! @ 9:53:00 PM • • RBJ

A Girl's Nightmare

My weight gain has become obscene that two days ago, a person I last saw a month ago noticed how heavy I have become. I was even wearing my foolproof pin-striped long sleeved blouse when he saw me!

This evening, I tried this sleek chick tube dress on for the Orchid Ball on Saturday and was aghast to see FAT playing peek-a-boo under my armpits. I reluctantly slipped out of it and handed it back to the saleslady.

The chibits have taken its toll on my arms, abdomen, waist and arms. I still have the Coke bottle figure, though, but more of a 2 liters than a 12 oz. now.

I have to go back to my veggie diet. Not only vanity-wise but health-wise as well. I know I'm just 19 but I don't wanna risk suffering from cholesterol or high blood problems in the future.

*.* as if! @ 9:36:00 PM • • RBJ

Floi Pablo Neruda

apologies, Mr. Neruda.^_^

Which poem are you?

Sonnet 17 by Pablo Neruda

Aw, you're a romantic. You believe in true love and all that sort of stuff. How cute are you? To you, love is incredible and amazing.

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*.* as if! @ 3:29:00 PM • • RBJ

The Floi Crisis

The following essay was Ton's reply to my question in relation to Bacterium's behavior. Bolded parts, I think, explain it best.

Finally, a long sensible post on Floi's blog!^_^ Tatlong bagsak para kay TON!

"If you like a girl and you know that the girl likes you back,
what would stop you from pursuing that girl?"

First of all, the most obvious reason could be that the guy never liked the girl in the first place. Of course, some people play and flirt around even to the point that it’s really hard to tell. In some instances, it’s just that the girl just falls for it too quickly. Either she’s desperate or she just liked the person to begin with and her mind just started playing tricks on her. People tend to construe the actions of people that they like in ways that favor them. It’s all very exaggerated and funny but we’re all quite prone to it even in cases where relationships are not involved.

Second, it could be that the guy is just a stupid twat who can’t get a clue. I suppose guys are known for being insensitive but this is ridiculous. But let’s just say that he really really really knew for a fact that the girl liked him back. Actually, it’s not quite ridiculous at all because I’ve seen it happen before. I have a couple of friends who, unbeknownst to me and my barkada, were developing some very romantic feelings for each other. They started delving into this relationship but everything turned whack and they literally ended up being enemies for some very stupid reasons. The reason primarily was because of ilang (which is a twisted form of embarrassment). They both knew they liked each and other everyone else knew but they wouldn’t act on it because they’d been friends for so long that it just felt different.

Third, it could also be some form of performance anxiety. You know what happens when you get something that you’ve wanted so badly for so long that you’re actually afraid you might destroy it. It’s kind of the same with relationships. Some people can be so afraid of destroying a friendship that they’d rather keep it as that rather than end up ruining it. In much the same way, some people are intimidated by the other person that they’re afraid they might not live up to expectations. Take ugly guys and models for example. It’s unlikely but relationships between these two do happen and when they do, sometimes the guys are just so intimidated or afraid of falling short that they’d rather not go through with it at all.

Fourth, it might be that the guy just doesn’t know how to go about it. There are guys like that out there. Is it so hard to believe? It’s sad but there are people like that – people who simply don’t want to be in any kind of relationship, can’t or just don’t know how. The first one are, I suppose, ultra-introverts – asocial types. The second could probably the worst. They can’t be in a relationship because other people don’t want to be in a relationship with them. And the last one I just explained.

Fifth, the guy might be in denial. He must’ve wanted it so much that learning that you like him back is just so surreal that it’s hard to believe and, in fact, he doesn’t believe it. He might be thinking that it’s either you’re just playing with him or are just being nice, both of which do nothing to help his ego at all.

Finally, in relation to the first answer, maybe there’s someone else or you’re just his meantime girl. Again, it happens. Shit happens. Guys, like most normal people, crave having someone around. If in the event that there isn’t anyone particularly suitable, guys will tend to go to their meantime girls. Usually these are friends or ex-girlfriend and flings. But if none of these options are available, there’s always time to find a new one, right? The reason why he can’t commit is because you just ain’t worth it. Or, maybe he actually has a heart and decided not to commit knowing full well that he’d only end up ditching you in the near future.

*.* as if! @ 2:42:00 PM • • RBJ

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*.* as if! @ 1:29:00 PM • • RBJ


There should be a law against falling for your friend or something. You have to learn to choose who you want for your friend and who you want for something more. I'd call it Selective Treasury. Upon meeting someone, you select right then and there how you would treasure him. I taught myself that years ago.

It's okeiii to be friends with an ex-lover but it's not okeiii to fall for your friends. If you do fall, you don't mess up what you have going with a friend by confessing! That is unless you're 100% certain your friend feels the same way. If you're not, chances are you're in for a heartbreak. and a friend-loss.

*.* as if! @ 11:55:00 AM • • RBJ

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Enjoying My Company

The way I see it, if other people enjoy my company,
why can't I enjoy my own?


Why am I so afraid of being alone? Why can't I enjoy my own company like other people do. I guess I'll never know. It is, in fact, one of my greatest fears - to wake up one day and realize I am alone, physically and romantically.

I'm both cow and chicken in doing things by myself - a COWard and a CHICKEN.

*.* as if! @ 4:19:00 PM • • RBJ

A Face that Haunts a Thousand Sheep

For the first time, I stared at my own picture, the one right there on the upper left side of your screen, and I saw how gloomy my expression is.

The sadness. The despair. The anguish. The despondency. Oh, the misery.

These are unmistakably perceptible in every hue, every micron of color.

I even look like I was fresh from crying, with my seemingly swollen eyes and scarlet nose tip.

I have not the slightest idea why I posted that pic. Maybe because I find it mysterious.

Where's the mystery, you ask?

Well, it's very seldom, almost never, that anyone would see me with that expression in person. I'm the bitchy bitch with a smile for everyone. Nyak!^_^ Labo.

I remember Sis Len commenting that that pic, in fact, is misleading. She thought I was this snobbish brat who doesn't know how to smile [which I try to be but can't] that she actually dreaded the day she would come face-to-face with me. Boy, was she surprised when we met at 65B. hehehe...

*.* as if! @ 2:58:00 PM • • RBJ

Monday, September 13, 2004

Back to High School

Remember your very first crush?

How he gave you palpitations everytime he crossed your mind?

How he gave you reason to get up every morning and go to bed early at night [only to doze off late]?

How happy he made you every time you hear his voice or you receive a text message from him?

How you wished you could just blurt out how you felt to his face but couldn't?

Remember your very first crush?

I do.

Coz that's exactly how I feel now.

I feel like a giggly high school girl with pigtails and mary janes.

Funny, I know. It's probably the funniest thing TGIS would ever hear.

Floi the bitch, loving someone from a distance.

Oh you have no idea how frustrated I feel right now. For once, after a long time, I am doing nothing to get the person I want. Not that I don't want to - I'm a person who knows exactly what she wants and how to get it - but because I can't. There's too much at stake. At my present stature, a good reputation is much too precious.

I regard my situation with utmost hatred and disgust. I hate being under the bonds of norms and standards. I detest following social convention. I am a rebel, after all.

But this isn't a choice I have to make. It's an order I have to heed. It's a small playground we're moving in. The players are one and the same.

But because he's different, I will wait. He's worth the wait... and prayers... and wishes upon the stars... and coins thrown to wells... and cigarette sticks last lit...

Just to let him know how I feel.

*.* as if! @ 10:15:00 AM • • RBJ

Friday, September 10, 2004

Supergirls Don't Get Sick

What have I been up to the past two days I haven't blogged?

Bed-ridden on Wednesday and tortured on Thursday.

I woke up on Wednesday and felt like a million tons heavy. I don't get sick. Supergirls like myself just don't. So, I just regarded it to be a good excuse to sleep all, sleep all day. [With a medical certificate, The Boss has no arguments with that!]

Ahhhhh... Nothing better than everyone bustling around tending to your needs. hahaha! Brat.


Thursday, still without any intention of getting out of bed, I did, got dressed and reported for work. Activity in the office freezes without me.

Hahaha! Talk about overconfidence, huh?

Nothing intolerable. Just felt like those days when I report to work with a delicious hang-over.


Sabi ni Mommy, bawal ang ice cream pag may sipon. *sniff* *sniff*

Had dinner at Brothers Burgers at Rockwell last night. Texted Mum I'd be home a little later than I've been this past weeks. [read: been at home by 8pm on the average]

Mum replied, "ok. Avoid cold drinks. ingatz."

Awww... MUM!!!

Drank ice-cold Lemonade with my Lamb Burger and Onion Rings. Hahaha!

*.* as if! @ 4:49:00 PM • • RBJ

Friendster Surprise

I was gonna blog last night when I made the mistake of checking Friendster first.

• On my 1st account, there was a pleasant surprise.

Guess who found me! DJ Kris of Common Ground! [But he spins at Ratsky now]

Not just DJ Kris, but Pipin' hot oozing with sex appeal DJ Kris! Oooh-lala!

• On my 2nd account, the Traffic Angel chick account, someone decided to write me a testi.

After not opening his Friendster for over a month, he surprised me with a barely-20-word testi that bull's-eyed on my mush spot.

Being the bitchy girl I am, here's what I have to say to you:

Ungas ka! May pa-testi testi ka pa jang nalalaman! Ano ba talagang gusto mo sa 'kin?! Una, magtatago ka. Ngayon, papakiligin mo ko?! Wala kang bayag! Kupal ka!

But of course, what I really mean to say is:

Thanks for the testi, dear. Very much appreciated. Hits the spot! Take me, I'm yours. But then, you want me to die loving you? Say those three small words. Go on, say it.


*.* as if! @ 4:03:00 PM • • RBJ

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

I Love this Job!

Note the sarcasm.

I got the sneezing and coughing going. Include to that head-throbbing and eye-watering.

In short, I'm sick.

But I'm in the office!

Not that I can complain, sick leaves aren't part of MY vocabulary by choice. Long as I can keep my head up and breathe, I consider myself in shape.

Why suffer from these?

Complications? Flu? Dengue Fever?

Or lack of night-outs? Ahhh... most probably.

I haven't been to Common Ground for three weekends! [read: since Chevy left]

I was there last Thursday but weekdays just don't count. Plus, I was with a workmate so, yep, it doesn't count. And I was in my work clothes, all the more not to make it count.

Have to hit the ledge on Saturday.

*.* as if! @ 11:00:00 AM • • RBJ

Monday, September 06, 2004


My forte.


I haven't been blogging because of...

a.) Lack of time [typical.]

b.) Writer's block [which I experience at least once/week]

c.) Boredom [my life has been scarce of anything bloggable lately]

d.) Contentment [regardless of C, I have this unexplainable feeling. Weird noh?]

e.) All of the Above.

Sorry for the inconvenience. Please bear with me. The system will be back up shortly.

*.* as if! @ 1:28:00 PM • • RBJ

Ka-jologsan at its finest

Chev, for you. Enjoy.^_^

Juz' call me 1st born
You're my 1st love
You're my 1st kiss from up above
And I don't care if you don't give love back
Coz' n my heart is where your ass is at
I love your eyes , your nose & your tender lips
Wanna kiss your neck, your shoulders to your finger tips
I go crazy when you shake those sexy hips
Baby girl you're the 1 I can't resist
You know I love you from the very start
I don't care if you break my heart
I'm the man & I'm here for you
Believe me coz' my love is true

(Chorus: Sashi)
Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

You wanna get down with k-n-i-n-e
Make sure that's pure l-o-v-e
Never talk about the i-c-e
Coz' I only got my h-e-a-r-t for y-o-u
I can't pay the bills for dinner
I juz' give them my IOU
For sure, I'm not after f-u-c-k
Got no b-a-d intentions don't wanna play girl
Maybe we might spot a UFO
Wait that's not part of the rhyme juz' felt like sayin' so
You gotta know that I love from the start till f-o-r-e-v-e-r

(Chorus: Sashi)
Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

Baby girl be my 1st lady
Be the mom of my 1st baby
You didn't like me when you 1st show me
I'll be gentle I'll do it slowly

Girl, I think it's better if you was with me
I got dough coz' I juz' won the spelling bee
For you, I got all the t-i-m-e
Ask mommies to pass but I'm not so sure
Juz' doin' my own thing
Shits more expensive than your fancy gold rings
I don't mean dissin' coz' I gots to go there
Mommies don't care
All for them ladies, even chicks with nose rings

(Chorus: Sashi)
Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

Itsumo kokoro we hoshi itstuka
Dare katu mata koi nei utchitimu
Itsumo kokoro nei eiro itsumo
Anata dake no basho ga aru kara

*.* as if! @ 1:23:00 PM • • RBJ


I'll be seeing you. Goodnight.

Find me here:


Palabras Finales

Remember me when you hear this

sleeps with butterflies ~ tori amos

Airplanes take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live?
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night?
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat?
I won't push you unless you have a net

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy

Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl, this girl

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy

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