It's sad when you realize that you have closed all your doors because you have already chosen the one to whom you'll give the key to, someone you have no certainty would accept it.

I was at CG last night and this guy John who Syanta introduced just recently [who I will introduce to y'all in another post] confessed how much I blow his mind. Get this, he said the first thing that made him attach the strings to me was my ability to speak english well, and to use slang words at that [Thank you, Chevy!^_^]. That's new. No one's ever used that line before.

Further, he said that not only am I interesting, I'm mysterious as well, i.e., he has no idea what I'll come up with next. Like, when he first saw me, he thought I was all goody-goody coz I stood there, sipping my Weng-Weng, seeming to be out of place. Five minutes later, I was on the ledge hyping up the crowd!

In a nutshell, he said a lot of wonderful things that he likes about me and what separates these from the rest is that his friends with us, boys and girls alike, said that he's one picky guy when it comes to girls. As in, he doesn't talk shit compliments just to woo a girl. In fact, they've never seen John with a girl at CG before that's why they're all nice to me coz if John stuck to my side the whole night, I must be one heck of a girl. [which of course, we all know for sure already. lolz]

It's all good; I would've had a lot of fun. I think John's cool. But as what I always say, what I think is different from what I feel. I was with John physically but make a wild guess who was in my head the whole time with Usher's You got it bad in the background.

Everything John did only made me think of everything P.A. did. Like, when John followed me outside to wait for Syanta, my head filled up with images of when P.A., being the rocker and biggest insult-generator for hifhof that he is, followed me to the dancefloor coz Chevy and the other girls didn't.

When John undid the top button of his shirt coz of the heat, I thought of P.A. closing the top button of his polo shirt and how I tried the whole night to undo it. I smiled when I remembered his smirk when I told him he looked too preppy when it's closed.

Yep, that song pretty much sums it all up. I would've set it up to be this blog's background but I'm feeling Hoobastanky today [whose song playing now is a perfect soundtrack nonetheless]. Maybe sometime in the future I will.



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*.* as if! @ 8:50:00 PM • • RBJ