I’ve kissed a guy... I’ve kissed guys. I just haven’t felt that thing.... That thing... that moment when you kiss someone and everything around you becomes hazy, and the only thing in focus is you and this person. And you realize that that person is the only person you’re supposed to kiss for the rest of your life. And for one moment you get this amazing gift. And you wanna laugh and you wanna cry, ‘cause you feel so lucky that you’ve found it, and so scared that it’ll go away all at the same time.

-NEVER BEEN KISSED

Honda Civic, Pajamas, blue umbrella, rain and NU 107 - elements of my perfect moment. But of course, the major and most significant element is him.

My heart is still racing. Seems HE gave ME atrial fibrillation back. I haven't felt this kind of comforting happiness for quite some time.

But I find myself asking which I should choose, my pride or this happiness. What the heck, I don't need pride. I'm trying hard not to let my super ego take over this time. Take it away, id!

I'm laying all my cards on the table. For the first time, I shall drop all my inhibitions and embrace this feeling, this happiness. Readers, prepare for a major depression once this expires.*sigh*

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May I just mention that it took me three times [!!!] just to publish this post? Is it a sign that I shouldn't have? Oh well.

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*.* as if! @ 1:16:00 PM • • RBJ