Screw Meralco!

I was in the middle of typing this entry when Pooft! The power went out. Now, I have to retype everything. Oh well...

Reality Bites

The past three days went by in a whirl. Funny how time flies by when you're having fun. Before i knew it, Mr. Depression is breathing down the back of my neck again.

I went to LB last Saturday. I decided I had to take a break from the excitement and heartaches of the city. Plus, I owed someone who took the effort to comfort me Wednesday night/Thursday morning dinner. Heheheh... It's the least I could offer. Nope, not my heart yet. Sorry to burst your bubble. :p Too soon...

Saturday and Sunday nights were spent with sisses, brods, and a good couple of bottles of MP. What's MP? That's Emperador to you, you ignorant fool. The drinking began the moment I set foot on the tambayan. Actually, they were already on the roll when I arrived. Diliman sisses came to visit. Too bad Ms. Punctual missed the charades-fun. But it's all good.

I was supposed to go to this pool party hosted by my baboy Hagen's cousin but I figured it was hard to leave our own li'l party at Mae's. Sorry babs... will make it up to you. I'll just bring my bikini when I come over to your place. *wink* *wink*

I woke up 11am Sunday, took a shower and went out with Anna to get some lunch. Man, I missed Bugong! Had a big meal of quarter chicken and two cups of rice. Yum! The advantage of MP over Red Horse is there is no morning-after queasiness. So, you can drink all you can, get drunk as much as you want, but still function properly the following day. But the downside is that my tummy felt like a bottomless pit the whole day so I gobbled on anything edible. Plus, my poo smelled weird. Ewww! Forget you read that.

Mae, Mylene and Anna slept the afternoon off while I tuned in to MYX to catch Burn which was only shown at 6pm. Talk about obssession, pare.Ü I was good to go when the sisses coaxed me into staying. Of course, I did not need any convincing. I stuck around for another night of good sisterly and brotherly fun.

Mae was supposed to drive me to Calamba 4am Monday but Ms. Sleepyhead has this weird habit of waking up then dozing back off. Needless to say, I woke up 8am, upset, only to find out that everyone in the house was up at 4am trying to wake me up and I didn't even remember! I missed work but for a worthy cause. *grin*

Monday afternoon was spent at the tambayan. Gawd! I miss everything about LB. But what I miss most is the people. I forced myself to leave at 6pm, teary-eyed and not even bothering to say my good-byes see-you-laters. I bawled like a mad lady searching for her sons in the bus. huhuhu... It's back to reality for me.

Patching Up

Merky and I had a nice long patching up conversation Saturday night. Phew! Two years in the making! I'm just more than glad we worked things out. It's never too late naman. I just missed my best friend. He is, after all, if not the only, one of the reasons, I am a Sigma Betan.

But then, did he really to do THAT thing?! [censored for privacy reasons] Sorry I elbowed you, Bro. Just won't work.

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*.* as if! @ 11:19:00 PM • • RBJ

Bring on the Endorphins!

Thanks to The Bitch Goddess, I found out that the happy hormones are called endorphins.

I wasn't able to report for work yesterday. Coz I barely had an hour of sleep coz of what happened Wednesday night. Good thing Boss called for a half day so I only missed out on the morning.

I indulged in self-pity and sulked. Sometimes sulking is good, y'know. But not too much. I realized 12 hours of sulking is all that moron of a guy deserves. So, by the afternoon I went out and played badminton with the workmates.

Dumz brought Charm along which is great coz I was able to vent out with someone who knows me well. At these times, nothing comforts me like being around LB Betans. She reverberated what Pop told me after I told him what happened. Yep, I told Pop. Coz in my moment of sulking, he himself had the urge to sulk so I let him in on the details. Pop said, "Anak, all is fair in love and war. Maganda ka naman. Mahahanap ka rin nun para sa 'yo." Awww... ain't that the sweetest thing?Ü

After the game, we went to this place in Burgos where li'l girls sure don't want their mothers to see them in. Hehehe... But, being the civilized, classy girls Charm and I are, it's no big deal. Those, um, low-flying girls can just stare at us in envy. hahaha!

Needless to say, I felt tons better when I went home.

Judge Him

Rozl's post on my tag-board: "shiyeth!that ludwig must be so good-looking f*@kin' male whore!!!!!!!!!!"

You be the judge. For those who haven't seen this pic I posted earlier, see for yourselves.



Go ahead. Tell me why the hell I'm wasting myself with someone who looks like THAT. Go ahead.

Stop the judging now. If you ask me, the only thing that looks good about him is his car. hahaha! Now, I'm one materialistic shallow bitch. Or just a bitter pathetic girl.

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*.* as if! @ 1:16:00 PM • • RBJ

P*!@#$ina!!!

Yan lang yung gusto kong ipagsigawan kagabi. Hindi na ko magpapaligoy-ligoy pa sa nais kong isulat. Yung nararamdaman ko? Ewan ko ba. AKO ANG PINAKATANGANG TAO SA MUNDO! Alam mo yung kanta ni Leanne Rimes na Life Goes On? "Shame on you if you fool me once. Shame on me if you fool me twice..."

Binuhat ko yung krus kung saan ipinako ko na rin yung sarili ko. Ewan ko ba. Minsan kahit ako hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko. Minsan kahit ako hindi ko na alam kung kelan ako nagpapakatotoo.

Di ba sabi ko kaya ko nang mawala sya sa kin? Na hindi ko sya kelangan. Na marami pang iba na mas hihigit pa sa kanya? Na marami namang nakapila para mahalin ako ng higit sa kaya nya? Siguro kase, sa plano kong maghiganti, ako rin yung napahiya. Ako yung nasa backseat e. Ako yung walang kasayaw. Mahina ka pala, Floi eh! Puro talk-shit. Hahaha!

Siguro pinakanakakahiya kase andun yung mga KA-BROD ni Ludwig. Mga brod nya lang kase yung mga brod ko hindi bastos, hindi nanggagago ng babae, lalo na ng sis. Puñeta. Meron pa nga isa dun - hindi na ko nagaksaya ng brain cell para alalahanin ang pangalan nya - feeling close, makatawag ba naman sa kin ng LC sabay beso.

Pero masaya kase andun kameng tatlong kumiliti sa puso ni Ludwig. Ako, si Chevy at si Maessie. Kung pano nangyaring nagkasama-sama kame sa iisang bubong, ako may pakana ng lahat. Tapos ako yung umuwing lumuluha. Saya noh? Ang cool ni Maessie kase nung maglaon, nakigulo na rin sya sa plano. Hehehe... Masaya naman kame ni Chevy. Mejo nagbonding na rin naman kame nung Sunday sa Bloodletting kung saan nabading si Ludwig at hindi sumipot. Sayang nga hindi nya kasama ang makulit na si Rossel.

Yung tumatakbo sa isip ko nung pauwi na kame habang nagrereminisce yung dalawa? Ginusto ko yun e. Ayaw na nga magpakita ni Ludwig kay Chevy, hinatid ko pa. With sugar on top. Panalo si Ludwig! Hindi namin sya naisahan. Kase bukod sa feeling nya ang pogi-pogi nya kase andun kameng dalawa ni Chevy, may naiuwi pa sya. O di ba? E kung hindi ba namin sya pinuntahan sa Common Ground, buo ba gabi nya? Ako rin naman nagrereminisce. Parang kelan lang, ako yung nasa harap, ako yung kinekwentuhan ni Ludwig ng kung ano-anong pangyayari sa buhay nya. Parang kelan lang sinabi nya sa kin pauwi na si Chevy sa June tapos in-assure nya ko na sorry na lang si Chevy kase may girlfriend na sya. Ako yun. O lasing lang yata ako nun na-imagine ko lang na nanggaling sa labi nya yung mga katagang yun.

Minsan, napaisip ako. Tiningnan ko yung set-up namin ni Chevy. Open-minded nga ba ako? O tanga lang talaga? Kakaiba kase talaga. Pero kagabi, nakita ko na. Sabit lang talaga ako. Maswerte na ko pumunta si Chevy sa States at nagkaron ng pagkakataong magtaksil si Ludwig kaya ko sya nakilala. Sige, ganon na lang. Kesa paniwalain ko yung sarili ko na mahal nya naman ako e... mas mahal nya nga lang yung isa.

Pero, gaya ng sinabi ko kay Chevy, kung merong magandang naidulot 'to, yun e nagkakilala kame at naging magkaibigan. Sobrang jive yung mga personality namin eh. Kaya salamat, Ludwig!

Remember this?

Saturday, May 01, 2004

Giggly


I can't blog. I'm too hyped up over something. Can't wait for June! Coz that's when I'll drop an immensely destructive bomb. It's still under manufacture at the moment. I've never been this excited ever! And I've never had this overwhelming urge to crush someone. Pound him till he's all powdery and useless he'll wanna kill himself. I don't even feel any pity towards whatever he might end up to be after. He has turned me into the heartless bitch everyone mistakes me to be.

Guess I was wrong. huhuhu...

I need a hug...

Hug me tight please? Anyone?

Tight enough to cut off my breathing and spare people of having to read the lamentations of a stubborn reiterating blogger.

So hug me now...

Thankee!

Thanks Cath for my music background! Couldn't have been installed at a better time. Hope you, my one or two readers, love this song as much as I do.

I'm twisted coz one side of me's telling me that I need to move on but on the other side I wanna break down and cry...

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*.* as if! @ 12:49:00 PM • • RBJ

Malaysia and Cubao

What is the one thing similar between these two places? Well, two of Floi's friends made their existence known in these places recently.Ü

Rozl in Malaysia

It was on a Sunday night when Roselle decided to break the wonderful news to me. I can barely hold up my eyelids when I received a text from her saying she was leaving for Malaysia Tuesday of that week then Singapore. She'd be out of the country for a month.

I was saddened coz I knew I'd miss her if she's gone for that long but of course I was more excited. She was included in the 5 students from UPLB who were sponsored to attend the convention for paper production in South East Asia. Or something. Like I said, I was waaay too sleepy to understand 100%.

We were joking about how she's gonna have a hard time waving those chinky-eyed boys away since her appeal has always worked for members of that race. We were already planning getting some Weng-Weng the moment she gets back to relay her experiences. We were even discussing what she oughtta bring home to me. hahaha! But then...

I got a text from her Thursday telling me she was sent home coz she was burning up with fever. I was belting out in Videoke with the workmates then and well, let's just say I wasn't able to enjoy the rest of the night. I'm not saying Roselle ruined my night or anything; I'm glad she did tell me.

But I'm soooo saddened with the fact that she wasn't able to enjoy her trip. Then she texted me that she was rushed to the hospital last night. What the hell is happening to her?! She's not showing any signs of improvement. In fact, she's getting worse each time. Gotta stop now, I'm getting teary-eyed.

Belle in Cubao

This is something to smile about.

Have you passed by EDSA lately? Have you seen that billboard in Cubao? The one endorsing Samson College of Science and Technology? Or something. *snicker* If you're North bound, it's on the left - right before Farmer's Plaza. [Hope that didn't confuse you] If you're South bound, look back coz you won't be able to see it since it's facing the opposite way.

The cute mestiza girl in corporate attire on that billboard is *drum roll* mah bebe Belle!!! My dear friend whom I keep praying makes it big. But, fyi, she ain't from that never-heard-of college. [Hahaha! I'm mean.] She's one hot chick gracing the UST campus who will soon grace your TV screens, every fashion magazine and billboard along EDSA. Hehehe. That's how much faith I have in you, bebe!Ü

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*.* as if! @ 10:31:00 PM • • RBJ

Three and counting...

kamusta???....nga pala pakisabi kay carlo belated h-bday. uhmmmm...sensiya kana....pinipilit ko pero di ko kaya. gusto kita tawagan kaso wag na.....may mga sasabihin lang ako sayo. na miss kita! yeah totoo miss kita...sobra. pinipilit kong ibalik yung friendship pero i know malabo na....pansin ko rin naman na umiiwas ka...pero ok lang naiintindihan kita. pinipilit ko ngang isipin na wala naman talagang nagbago..pero obviously meron. ayoko lang din tanggapin sa sarili ko...sa simula pa lang ayokong tanggapin na minahal kita...yeah minahal kita. in a short period of time minahal kita. ayokong tanggapin kasi i don't wanna get hurt pero andito na eh nasaktan na rin ako...eh di sinabi ko na sayo. sa rum...pag pumapasok ka i have to pretend na masaya ako...na ok lang ako...na everything is fine.....though d truth is hindi...hay....pero don't worry walang nakakaalam. i just wanted you to take gud care of urself...thank you for the times u've shared wid me....for the times u've made my day complete...thanks for ol the care...if i cud only bring back the time...sana kaibigan pa rin kita hanggang ngayon. pero that's life....eniweiz advance HAPI B-DAY!!! pag nagkita tayo on-line hindi mo kailangang umiwas...pretend na wala kang nabasa...please...and i promise u this will be the last time na paguusapan natin to. Take Care! from now on wala akong kilalang ludwig....meron lang akong on-line friend na ugly_boy_hir ang id. promise ko yan sayo....ayoko rin ng naiilang ka....;) pa kiss na lang....mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Please tell me this is a joke. Pretty pleeeease. Someone? Aaaargh!

Why the hell does reading this bring tears to my eyes? Coz stupid me agreed to meet up up with him last night? Coz stupid me believed him still when he told me he love me? Coz stupid me is holding on no matter how hard I try to move on? Coz stupid me is being such a hypocrite to myself and to everyone else? This blog should be entitled "The STUPIDEST girl to hold a Martini..."

What kind of cruel human being would break three [?! and that's only those that I know of] innocent girls' hearts in 2 months? TWO MONTHS! TWO MONTHS! And now, someone informed me he's making his moves on a Sis's daughter. Yet, he keeps tellin' me he just ain't ready to have girlfriend again. How I love to pick on his brain, shove it under a microscope and decipher whatever's going on in that head of his. GAWD!
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I just remembered. I saw on this girl's Friendster that she's from QC. Ludwig cancelled our plan one time because he's going to visit a friend in QC. Hmmm...

Guns and Mistresses

Traffic was hellish on the road home this morning. Turns out a guy shot himself in a car parked on the roadside coz his wife found out he had a mistress. The wife and mistress made him choose. Braindead Ludwig insisted that a celebrity was causing the commotion. It was a celebrity alright, for a day. Sure will hit headlines coz of the number of media people present.

Hmmm... what if Chevy and I pushed through with our plan? Would Ludwig get a gun and do the human race a big favor by removing defective DNA from the gene pool?

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*.* as if! @ 6:50:00 PM • • RBJ

Eternal Rebel

I never follow rules. As a matter of fact, I love breaking them. But not to the extent of getting myself into trouble. Hence the tag rebellious conformist.

Today, I really risked termination by logging in and actually chatting in the office WITH THE BOSS RIGHT ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE PARTITION!!! I was friggin' bored off my wits I had to do something to keep me from running around the office tearing at my hair. A memo wouldn't even had made me log off coz I got to talk to some worthwhile peeps. On top of those would definitely be my dear friend on the other side of the world, Faye!

Haven't seen her for almost 8 years now. She said she was supposed to visit this summer [US climate] but she was short by a couple hundred bucks. Told her had she informed me earlier, I would've chipped in to fill it up. Ain't I the coolest friend? harharhar... Well, that's how much I miss her. I literally grew up with her in a remote subdivision in Las Piñas but her family left for greener pastures when we were in 6th grade.

If anyone witnessed how rebellious I was even as I child, that would be Faye. [FYI, I actually used to call her Yeng-Yeng and I was Floi-Floi to her but she swore she'd kill me the minute I call her that now.Ü] She saw how I would sneak out of the house mid-afternoon to play [with her!!! hahaha!]. She saw how I would pretend to be nauseatic just to get out of our catechism classes. She saw how I would ride the bike even though Mum forbid me to.

So, I guess people really don't change. A rebel is a rebel no matter how you put it. A moron is a moron no matter how you put it. So, quit having faith that people will change. Coz they don't. Not drastically anyway. Um... scratch that. THEY DON'T, period.

23-floor-high

Our office is on the 23rd floor. But, I came into office Monday morning to be greeted with... tadah! FLOOD. 2 inches of flood.

I won't give y'all a detailed account of the damages coz everything's almost back to order now. Almost. Coz the office still reeks from the drying papers.

So, yah, I was saying it was probably one of the fun-nest days at work coz all we did that day was hang the documents to dry. That's folders and folders of the CEO's most essential files. The company's life. Sheesh... you'd think he would be pissed off but I think he himself enjoyed the idea of the office looking like a local town fiesta. [read: banderitas] He had Darwin buy some straw string and used it like clothesline. Boss picked the docs, we hang 'em. Fun! Funner than being put on hold on the phone by irritatingly intellectualy-incapable humans.

The Reason: Right on top of our office on the 24th is a dental clinic. A friggin' dental clinic! Who the heck places a dental clinic amongst corporate offices?! Much less on top of one?! The clinic's flexipipe burst suspectedly last Friday judging by how softened the papers are and flooded everything within its vicinity. Especially OUR office which is as i've mentioned, right below.

We have yet received any form of apology from the building administration nor the dental clinic owners. Vicente Araneta sure cares much for his tenants. Can't wait till Ortiz designs builds OUR building and we are freed from these money-driven property owners. Speaking of which, Boy-next-door has been on leave for a long time now. Turns out, as chika-ed by the firm's president's secretary, he's taking the local architectural board. Haaay... I'm such a sucker for achievers.

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*.* as if! @ 8:40:00 PM • • RBJ

Charmed or Cursed?

For the nth time, I find myself the object of a married man's desires [read: twisted something-band-vocalist]. *sigh*

Tine was blowing her top over the phone when she told me the great news. It was she who found out from a reliable source. I was merely indifferent. I mean, once you get the hang of it, revelations of the like don't make an impact anymore. You just forget he had the potential to be everything to you and settle for being 'friends'.

It got me thinking, though. Maybe Em was right. Maybe I am condemned to being a mistress. Maybe I oughtta just accept my bitter fate. Maybe I may never find THE ONE whom I can actually call mine. Sad naman. I knew I shouldn't have taken my chance with Dumaguete. Karma sure catches up quickly.

TGIS comforts me with the thought that my appeal knows no boundaries, it works from innocent li'l boys to matured married men. But more inclined on the latter coz those boys simply can't handle my complicated maturity and intellect.

I ain't losing hope. One thing for sure is I'm not getting together with anyone attached. I'd rather die a happy single than break my pledge of undying loyalty to the duty of womanhood I made when I entered Sigma Beta.

Busted!

putcha_gwapo_ako: hi beb!
floicute8: huh?
putcha_gwapo_ako:why? can't i call you beb anymore?
floicute8:okeiii ka lang? since when did you call me beb? you're mistaken, man. asshole.
putcha_gwapo_ako:why are you so mad? wala naman ako ginawa ah. miss u na.
floicute8:hindi ako si ______. sya yung beb mo gago.
putcha_gwapo_ako:ikaw na lang, pwede?
floicute8:lud?
putcha_gwapo_ako:baket? ayaw mo?
floicute8:okeiii na sana pero hindi naman ikaw si ______ e.
putcha_gwapo_ako:ako kaya to.
floicute8:kase ______ would never call me beb. not after...
putcha_gwapo_ako:pede ba lets forget about it and move?
floicute8:move on my ass. sino ka?
putcha_gwapo_ako:ako nga to.
floicute8:oh yah? you want us to move on? drive over now.
putcha_gwapo_ako:sige paalam lang ako.
floicute8:now na ha. tinatanong ka na rin ni ate e.
putcha_gwapo_ako:sige, hi mo na lang ako kay ate. be there in 15 mins.
floicute8:ha! bye.

Thing is, I don't have an ate and Ludwig knows that. hahaha! If you're gonna make a fool out of someone, you should at least get the facts right. Aaaargh!

China Town

Last Wednesday was nothing like my usual gimiks with Rozl and Sheila [plus Doc Garret]. Why? Coz we were accompanied by boys straight from China. Hahaha!

William is this architect Rozl met on Friendster who is mesmerized [if not obssessed] with the idea of fairies, elves and everything that goes with it. Read for yourself! Click on his link. His peers Rei and Edrick tagged along. Rei, cute as he is, is a 19-year-old incoming senior... in high school! I don't even entertain the fact that he's got a thing for me coz... halleeer! I see some college boys as waaay immature, what more high school kids?! Puh-leeease! But he's cool to text with. Sayang sa load!

Restricted Area

Due to internal issues which unsurprisingly arose from the upcoming bloodletting activity, Sigma Betans are advised not to make an appearance at 65B effective June 11, Friday.

Sheeesh... I hate it! It's the single place in Manila which comforts my homesickness for UPLB. But, what can I do? As I have mentioned earlier, I pledged undying loyalty to the duty of sisterhood. Sad. Sad. Sad. Makes me be thankful more for LB chapter not having a LC. I miss you LB brods and sisses. Bring me baaaack! *tear*

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*.* as if! @ 3:54:00 PM • • RBJ

Riding the MRT with boys

Sorry Drew, I don't think I gave justice to your character.

Maybe I just didn't notice before or because I'm under the influence of four (4) bottles of San Mig Light [or was it five? Ain't sure but I paid for 6] that it was only this time that I observed that I got quite a handful of stares in the MRT. Tonight, approximately five boys and one, um, girl-feeling-boy can sleep soundly thinking they are lucky to be able to establish eye contact with a byoootiful woman. harharhar!

Or maybe they WERE staring at me coz I look waaay wasted to be overlooked. Whatever. All I know is I've enough sobriety to document it. :p losers

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*.* as if! @ 10:36:00 PM • • RBJ

My Turn!

This song has been playing on Chevy's blog for a long time and well, she changed it already. Since this was just released in the Philippines a couple of weeks ago, I can say it's my turn to emote to it. Unfortunately, my html knowledge doesn't include putting a music background yet so if anyone knows how to, I beg thee to gimme some free tutorials. Haha! So, we can all emote to it together.c",)

BURN

[Intro]
I don’t understand why
See it’s burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don’t mean I want to
What I’m trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1]
It’s gonna burn for me to say this
But it’s comin from my heart
It’s been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don’t think you’re gonna change
I do but you don’t
Think it’s best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I’m hurting baby, I ain’t happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus]
When your feeling ain’t the same and your body don’t want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain’t jumpin’ like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it’s best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it’s over
We know that it’s through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2]
Sendin’ pages I ain’t supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain’t the same by myself
Callin’ her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It’s the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it’s too late
I know she ain’t comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don’t know what I’m gonna do
Without my booo
You’ve been gone for too long
It’s been eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin’ till you return (let it burn)

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
I’m twisted cuz one side of me is tellin’ me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I’m twisted cuz one side of me is tellin’ me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin’?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I’m still burnin’ till you return

[Chorus]
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Stop right there! This doesn't mean I dedicate it to anyone in particular, ayt? Only guy I associate this song with is My Geek coz of that cozy moment we shared along Makati Ave.[see May 19 entry] I don't cry when I hear this; I actually feel tingly all over.o^_^o

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*.* as if! @ 7:35:00 PM • • RBJ

Too Much Togetherness

We oughtta call our group something coz it's hard to refer to us as Em-Tin-Floi-Kinot-Resty-Basti all the time. Who would've thought the 6 of us would be spending a whole lotta time together?! Tin and Em aren't my usual gimik buddies to start with. But it's cool.

So yeah, anyway, we saw each other thrice this week. They, on the other hand, saw each other FOUR times coz by chance they forgot to invite me last Monday when they watched Troy. First was the hang-out last Tuesday, then another at Tin's Wednesday and last night.

Our parents likewise oughtta form their own group. Comparing notes, we discovered they all give the same friggin' sermons about going home late and stuff. We also found out we have the same defense mechanisms. hehehe...

The group won't be disbanded anytime soon. Not until Tin and Resty decides they're not meant for each other. Coz then it would be awkward for all of us.

Shoot Me, Baby

For some reason, my boss was bored last Wednesday afternoon and made me his reluctant subject for a photo shoot. Using his Sony Ericsson, he took stolen shots of me which, I have to say, might as well have been staged. Hehehe... He keeps threatening me that, using his connections, he will have it published on some business magazine or the like. Of course, I pretend not to want to but heck! That would be awesome! Me, a model. Right.

NFF

New Found Friends!

Went to Arkdia last Thursday with Tine and her buddies after playing badminton with the workmates. Tine is our clerk in the laboratory whom I like to call phonepal coz she's the only one I can have personal conversations with on the phone.

We had a blast! I've never had any problems having fun with a new group of people and that night was no different. Plus, I went fishing and caught Joseph-the-cute-vocalist-of-Twisted something band-whose-voice-makes-me-wanna-melt-over-him. BUT - there's the big but - I can't. Coz he has been Tine's reason for going to Arkdia for long. He might as well have HANDS OFF written across his forehead. He asked for my number. I gave it to him, though. Bitch.

Huh?!

Was that really me? - My question when I read my earlier entries in xanga. I realized I've been blogging for over a year now. Ain't that neat?Ü

One would know how much I've changed just by reading my blogs. Here's a preview:

Wednesday, May 21, 2003

i just got well!!! i was sick with fever and my mum was thinking maybe it was SARS again!!! this is the second time my mum thought so... she's just so far out!!! the first time was a couple of weeks ago when i came home with the colds... i came from Los Banos and there was allegedly a SARS victim in the area... what is it about SARS?! if you're gonna die , you're gonna die right? anyweiz, it was reported earlier on TV Patrol that WHO declared the Phils to be SARS-free... enough of that serious talk!!! i'm out!!!

I actually thought talking about SARS was serious?! Oh, c'mon.

Tuesday, May 27, 2003

it's raining cats and dogs and i love it!!!

i love the rain... it brings some kinda peace of mind...

when i was a college freshman, i used to always cry in the dorm whenever it rains... i missed the comforts of home... like yesterday, Mama cooked soup in the afternoon... when i'm in LB, i have to cook for myself which is impossible coz i'm reeeally lazy when it rains... yet, when i'm in LB, i'd probably be cuddling up with my baby... aahhh... i miss him... oh well, hope to see him soon...

This I can still relate to. Minus the part of having a baby, that is.

Can't Touch Me

He insisted not to be mentioned in my blog. This is my blog. I'm the boss.

I'm 19. It's a fact. But, it's something hard to remember, even believe, for some people.

I was offered a proposal easy for me to turn down. I don't need some more time to think about it , y'know. NO would be my answer at any time. Not even if you raise the offer to 5 million. No amount can make me forget my morality and Catholic faith. None. Not even if you threaten to make my life a living hell.

If you offer to make me the queen even of some remote island, a career in Hollywood, and an all-expense-paid trip to outerspace, I might reconsider. But, that's just to humor you.

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*.* as if! @ 3:24:00 PM • • RBJ

What will be will be

Van and Floi's mantra in life.

Reality.

Long Distance relationships work on a 1:1,000,000 ratio. That's what I perceived.

Incredible.

More so than those McDo TV ads. Imagine a couple being together for 2 years and a half and actually being together physically for barely 8 months. Isn't it the most incredible and admirable thing in the romantic world?

That's the situation for Kinot and Vanessa. Vanessa is in far-away San Diego. Impressive, indeed. The last spark of hope for those hopeless romantics I categorize myself with.

But after witnessing their little drama tonight, I'm not so sure what to believe in anymore. So, Vanessa is this excessively selosa girl, not to mention paranoid who threatens for a break-up every other time, and Kinot is this stubborn-headed loyal boy, not to mention with irresistible dimples [I'm such a sucker for those facial abnormalities!]. Yeah, they've endured the distance for THAT long but, what for? For the LOVE?! To torture themselves with paranoia and overactive imaginations?! What's the point.

Now, this is not about love. It's about getting out of something that torments you EVERYDAY in general; walking away from something that keeps you from doing what makes you HAPPY as a whole. Simply living for here and now. When something you want, or something you're involved in, takes too much effort to achieve or retain, then it's not meant to be. Just accept it. Coz if it is, it will be yours NO MATTER WHAT and with a lot of ease.

I passed my Communication courses with least possible effort and in flying colors as opposed to failing my Statistics courses despite rigorous studying. I got out of college. What's the point of collecting 5's on your transcript? It won't get me a worthwhile job. I took the risks in the real world. Look at where I am now.

Don't get me wrong, kiddos. I do believe that you oughtta work hard for something in order for you to understand its value. But then, always keep in mind that what will be will be. That's faith VS fate. Know when to depend on which.

Such Thievery

Quite appropriate. Stolen from Jowein once again.

I just noticed something. My friends are plagiarizers. plagiarizors? plagiarazors? plagiaristics? plagiarists? I've forgotten what intellectual thieves are called.

They keep using past contents of my Friendster profile and blog in their own profiles. No, they don't! They just borrow the ideas.


It's okeiii, my beloveds. I forgive you. Who asked you to, Floi?

Kung hindi ko lang kayo fwends... :p

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This entry shoulda been called striked.



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*.* as if! @ 11:22:00 PM • • RBJ