there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me

If you can't take the heat, stay out of the kitchen.
Don't effin' blame the chef!

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Dream Girl

I'm awake! I'm awake! But that doesn't mean I'm going to reply to you.
And what's with the my princess?! I'm a queen, you half-wit! Diyosa, even.
Oh, and FYI, I had a good night's sleep too. Coz my dream didn't include you.

Hello?! It's 8:30! My work's at 9.
I have a bad case of tardiness but not THAT severe.

And take a hint, I'll never ever ever ever have the time to reply to you.

*.* as if! @ 2:14:00 PM • • RBJ

Monday, November 22, 2004

Ditching Vices

I miss Friendster...

But I'm enjoying challenging myself in staying away from something I love. I can do this.

The same goes with staying away from him. I can do this.

The day I log on to Friendster is the day I give up on this abstinence.

Package deal.^_^

*.* as if! @ 3:58:00 PM • • RBJ

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Oh No!

Samantha has breast cancer! Good thing she contemplated on getting a boob job.

Miranda got married! And her mother-in-law had a weird confession on her wedding day.

Charlotte was treated to a seven-course dinner! She spent the rest of the night getting rid of it.

Carrie had a perfect moment - perfect music, perfect dress, perfect Russian date, perfect surroundings! And fainted, skipped the opera and danced at McDonald's.

I missed Sex and the City...

I'm never going out on a Saturday night again. [At least not before watching this series]

*.* as if! @ 2:24:00 PM • • RBJ

Saturday, November 20, 2004

How to lose a guy...

Andie Anderson did it in ten days. I guess I'm better at it coz I lost one in a night. ONE FRIGGIN' NIGHT!

Thank you... Thank you...

Cease the applause, ladies and gentlemen. Just convert bouquets and cards to cash, please.

So, when you want to dispose an annoying Y-chromosome carrier, you know who to contact. This expert's competence is guaranteed; she executed it without even realizing it. it. it.

Sun subscribers may also call free of charge at 0922-LOSEGUY.

*.* as if! @ 5:22:00 PM • • RBJ

Friday, November 19, 2004

Perfect Day

I'm feeling so good
I knew that I would
Been taking care of myself like I should
Cause not one thing
Can bring me down
Nothing in this world's gonna turn me around...

Yesterday is the perfect day to date. I was incredibly happy; I even texted some people just to share my happiness with them [and to maximize my 24/7 free text]. Here's the catch, my happiness is not a result of anything. I was just... happy. Happy. Happy. Happy. I love this feeling. I know this will last long because it's independent of anything. An independent feeling. Hmmm...

When I opened up my eyes today
Felt the sun shining on my face
It became so clear to me that everything is goin my way...

I woke up, ate sauteed corned beef, scrambled eggs and garlic rice then lathered on my favorite TBC mango shower gel. I was feeling girly so I chose to wear my pin-striped skirt which, tadah! Mum has already ironed. [usually, I have to beg Mum to iron my clothes. Mum's a lazy parent. hehe. kidding]

I stepped out into the main street when a jeepney screeched to a halt even before I flagged it down.

The jeepney driver dropped us passengers off in close proximity to the MRT station when suddenly, a familiar bag! [starbs insignia] Hmmm... perhaps there are a lot of bags like that. Suddenly, a pair of familiar shoes! [checkered sneakers] Holy Cow! It's Tiepee!!! In the flesh!

It was such an unexpected moment, I just stared at her for a few minutes [while making my way through the crowd. Mann, that girl certainly walks fast] when I remembered her blogpost on people recognizing her in public but not coming up to her to say hi. With the tip of my left index finger, I tapped her shoulder [not because nandiri ako as some people might comment but because I wanted to see if she's for real and I was thinking she's too delicate like china. hehe]

We both stared at each other in disbelief with giggles in between our hi's and OMG's. You see, Tiepee is my very first blogger friend. Her purple chocolates link has been on my sidebar practically forever. I've been witnessing her day-to-day struggles for almost a year and now, I'm starstruck. Hahaha! Yeah, girl, I was. Hahaha!

Too bad I had to get to work so I left her at Shaw Station. My happy-o-meter climbed a thousand notches, though.

The rest of the day went by in a blur. I had this silly grin plastered on my face even while my boss was getting irate with the leery travel agent. Everyone I talked to on the phone noted my cheery almost-sing-song voice. Nothing could have rained on my parade.

Now that day is turning into night
And everything is still going right
there's no way you can stop me this time
Or break this spirit of mine
Like the stars above I'm gonna shine
Anything I want will be mine
Tonight I'm gonna have a good time
Call a few friends of mine
Cause I'm loving life and tonight's for feeling so good...

I was supposed to have a movie date with Cha. I want to watch Santa Santita out of curiosity. I want to see how sweet wholesome Angelica pulled the role off. But, Jonas was going to join us so a bar was most likely. Maris joined us too.

We three girls met up at Megamall, and decided to eat dinner at Metrowalk since that was where Jonas was going to pick us up. We took a cab from Mega but made a wrong turn, got off at Caltex Julia Vargas and walked the rest of the way. Walking beside the highway on stilletos for approximately 300 meters was like a walk in the park.

We stuffed ourselves at Chicken Bacolod, waited for Jonas then transferred to Pier One Pasig. We had such a great time I kind of felt sad when we were going home. Just a bit because I realized tomorrow is a new day.^_^

So, there goes my one fine day. I'm sure there's a lot of that day to follow.

*.* as if! @ 3:13:00 PM • • RBJ

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

I love you... Goodbye

A week ago, Cha and I were on the same boat. This week, Loiza and I are.

We both said goodbye to the persons we love. We did in different situations, but just as painful.

Loiza's Goodbye

Marnie has been in Singapore for almost four months and he went back last week for Loiza's birthday. Ain't that the sweetest thing? Awww... He flew back to Singapore last Monday and Loiza's unsurprisingly down in the dumps yet again. We were planning on going out that afternoon after Marnie left but at 2pm, she cancelled because "her head hurts" and she's still in the airport waiting for Marnie's plane to take off. Talk about masochism. I can just imagine her jumpin' up and down, waving at the airplane.

Floi's Goodbye

With another girl and their revalida coming up, things are looking waaay hazy between my boo and me. I don't want that. I don't enjoy tormenting myself and I don't want people suffering because of me. I may seem utterly self-involved and bratty [I actually am] but I have enough heart to be considerate of other people, especially the ones I love. Perhaps everyone can tell how much I'm into him.

But, I'm sorry, I can't deal with having to share you with anyone. This isn't martyrdom, it's doing the right thing for once. Consequences, Lex. We both have to live with the choices you made. You tell me she's out of the question, that you just have to clear the hurdle in front of you but really, she is. Why? Coz on that extensive SMS, she was mentioned. You care about her, and you mentioned her almost in the same tone as you talked about me. Now, I'm being bratty.

Med school and relationships just don't mix. Good luck to you, my dear Bacterium, P. Aeruginosa, Mr. Anderson, Roduta...

my boo... who turned out to be a major booboo...

Pwede mag-senti?

One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
[tama bang umiyak sa office?!]

*.* as if! @ 11:41:00 AM • • RBJ

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

He was born...

September 13.

Look who I blogged about that day.

Coincidence? Fate! Sheesh, how many times do I have to say it?!

*.* as if! @ 6:00:00 PM • • RBJ

Boss-free Office --> Imminent Boredom

You are an enigma wrapped in a mystery, you blog
for yourself. You have your own reasons for
doing what you do. We are still glad you're here!

What kind of blogger am I?
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S/he who finds new things.
You are the first to find titillating links,
hottest gossip and funniest websites. Thumbs
up, keep up the good work! We love you!

What kind of blogger are you?
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Thanks for the links, Ate Jill! hehehe...

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Ashlee Simpson's Lip-Sync fiasco @ SNL
Pulp Community

*.* as if! @ 3:18:00 PM • • RBJ

Sino Nga Ba?

Sino ba ang mas mahalaga, ang taong mahal mo
O ang taong gusto mong mahalin?

Ang taong kasama mo buong araw
O ang taong iniisip mo bago matapos ang araw?

Siya bang kasa-kasama mo sa lahat ng ginagawa mo
O siyang dahilan ng lahat ng galaw at ginagawa mo?

Sino ba ang mas mahalaga... yung taong nais mong makasama habang buhay
O yung taong hindi mo makita ang habang buhay kapag wala sya?

Sino ang mas matimbang... yung taong pag kasama mo'y parang kay bilis ng oras
O yung taong tuwing iniisip mo'y parang kay bagal ng oras?

Ano ang susundin mo... ang dinidikta mo sa puso mo
O ang dinidikta ng puso mo syo?

Sya ba un laging pumapasok sa isip mo
O sya yung laging laman ng panaginip mo?

Sino nga ba... ang taong nagpaluha syo,
O ang taong nagpunas sa minsang pagluha mo?

Sino sa kanila... ang taong nagpapatawa syo
O ang taong dahilan ng lahat ng iyong emosyon?

Sino nga bang pipiliin mo???

Pero sa totoo lang, hindi naman mahalaga kung tama yung piliin mo e. Mas mahalaga kung ikaw ang pipiliin nya...

*.* as if! @ 2:47:00 PM • • RBJ

Monday, November 15, 2004

Moment of Silence

Let us all pay our respects for the souls of Prana Escalante and Cornelio Espeleta.

Prana's remains were finally found in a river last Thursday at Mt. Halcon after being reported missing for a week. Ludwig participated in the search-and-rescue operations. I remember my fear when he climbed the same mountain last March. He asked what I wanted for pasalubong and I said him safe and sound would be more than enough. Well, not all of them are that lucky, I guess...

Cornelio passed away due to liver failure as complications of diabetes last Saturday. He is one of the best designers to grace the Philippine fashion industry. Above all, he was also a loving brother to my dear friend Ferdie. Rest assured, he will be missed...

*.* as if! @ 9:37:00 PM • • RBJ

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Break Break Down

Mum's having a nervous breakdown...                How I wish I were a mushroom.

*.* as if! @ 9:25:00 PM • • RBJ

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Ped Xing

Saturday. 5 am. Aldean behind the wheel and Wencie on the backseat.

We were cruising through Dimasalang when I saw this "street".

"Oh, is this the same Ped Xing that leads to Roxas Boulevard? Mejo malayo ah."

*Incredulous laughter*

"Nagbibiro ka ba? It stands for Pedestrian Crossing!"

How was I supposed to know?! Okeiii, this makes me an ignoramus but hey, now you know I'm only human.(^___^)

It only gets worse...

Saturday afternoon TV delight. Panjee and I balled up on the couch.

"Ate, di ba yung ibig nun sabihin Pedestrian Crossing?"

"Galeng mo, beb ah! How'd you know that?"

"Sabi ni Papa."

I threw daggers at Pop's direction.

"How come you never told me that?!"

"You never asked."


*.* as if! @ 7:16:00 PM • • RBJ

My Body is a Wonderland

I have been neglecting my very own Enchanted Kingdom.

I haven't been going to my appointments and have been ignoring doctor's orders. I have a couple of tests to go but I couldn't care less.

Doc's going ballistic; she's more concerned about my health than I do. I can imagine her launching into fits when she discovers what I took last night and the week before that.

What the hell, I can just drop-dead for all I know.

My body is a mere vessel. I'm bigger than what's visible to the eye.

*.* as if! @ 1:32:00 PM • • RBJ

Friday, November 12, 2004

Cash-ual Friday


I rolled off
the bed,

the shirt on top of the
heap on the

slipped on my reliable

and made my way to


I love Casual Fridays because I can be...

And it's a long payday weekend. I'm busy planning how to spend.

*.* as if! @ 4:29:00 PM • • RBJ

Thursday, November 11, 2004

A Friendly Reminder from Mr. Webster


Pronunciation: reyn chek

1. [n] a ticket stub entitling the holder to admission to a future even if the scheduled event was cancelled due to rain.

2. [n] a promise* that an unaccepted offer will be renewed in the future.

Obviously, this terminology is often misused or misunderstood.


Pronunciation: 'prâmis

[n] a verbal commitment** by one person to another agreeing to do (or not to do) something in the future.

Duh, this is taught in preschool.


Pronunciation: ku'mitmunt

[n] the act of binding yourself (intellectually or emotionally) to a course of action
Now, that we have cleared that out, let us now wait for the renewal of the agreement to be bound. HUH?!

*.* as if! @ 3:24:00 PM • • RBJ

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Bernie, Cebu and Floi's Age

While having dinner at Jo's Chicken Inato in Cebu on Sunday night [our last night],

Bernie: Mga ilang taon ba kayo?

Ana: 25

Carla: 24

Cha: 25

Floi: 19

Bernie [breaking out with a boisterous laugh]: 19 daw o!

All four [with puzzled faces]: 19 nga.

Bernie: *punctuates fading laugh with a puff of his cig*

*.* as if! @ 10:59:00 AM • • RBJ

Get off the Boat

Cha and I are on the same one. *sigh*

Sisters loving brothers. Brothers having "other" girls. Sisters being "too good" for the brothers. Other girls being "incomparable" to sisters. All that is good and noble in man. Haaay...

Come to think of it, though. Denggoy is 32 years old. Lex is 25. Cha is 25. And I am... 19! Effin' nineteen and we're all experiencing similarly tough times. How unfair is THAT? I'm aging prematurely. I should be enjoying the last months of my teens. But I digress.

Love chooses no time and place. Life's too short to be waiting, if you are even waiting for something, that is.

*.* as if! @ 10:37:00 AM • • RBJ

Keep in mind

Magbiro ka na sa lasing
Magbiro ka na sa bagong gising
Wag lang sa TIGANG...

At yun ay kung ano kameng apat sa Cebu. Si Ana umuwing luhaan. Hindi man lang daw sya nakatikim ng Cebuano. Ako naman, Manileño na nga sa Cebu, may dumating pang istorbo. Kelan kaya ulit madidiligan?
[ng pag-ibig ang aking naghihinagpis na damdamin]

*.* as if! @ 10:30:00 AM • • RBJ

Monday, November 08, 2004

Bigaon, Igat, Kiat

One of my goals in my Cebu escapade was to learn a word or two in Cebuano. What do you know, I learned three!!! They all mean the same thing, though. :p

I was gone to Cebu for four days and came back with a boy. Mother dear couldn't call me these words [in Tagalog, of course] enough and Father? He's just too glad his daughter's not a lesbo.

Hahaha! Yeah, Pop wants me to have a boyfriend because he says it's better I introduce a different guy to them once in a while instead of going home with a girl in tow.

My parents are weird. Now, you know where I got my genes from.

*.* as if! @ 9:01:00 PM • • RBJ

My whorish heart...

... is filled with love for [in no particular order]:

The reason I watch Mulawin
Bonafide DDG!!!

Er, for my luxurious tail?

My fiery nails

Like, duh! Starbucks is Starbucks, pare...

Sun Cellular's damn generous

Her paparapapa song was the sisses' official Cebu theme song

The best beerkada ever ever ever

My island of ♥


*.* as if! @ 8:51:00 PM • • RBJ

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Gay and Happy

I got to hang out with my dear friend and his boyfriend at Tequila Joe's ATC last night and it got me thinking. How appropriate; they are gay and happy.

While most hetero couples I know lead quite complicated relationships [myself included], these two have been together for two months without any drama at all. It doesn't surprise me, though because when you think about it, Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus. Hence, Martians understand Martians, right?

Hmmm... If my first same-sex relationship were with Avi Siwa, why not?*wink*

*.* as if! @ 8:54:00 PM • • RBJ

Saturday, November 06, 2004

The Notebook

Tieps, here's my story.

The Movie

A young woman comes to the coastal town of Seabrook, North Carolina in the 1940's to spend the summer with her family. Still in her teens, Allie Hamilton meets local boy Noah Calhoun at a Carnival. On the spot, Noah senses that he and Allie are meant to be together. Though she is a wealthy debutante and he a mill worker, over the course of one passionate and carefree summer in the South, the two fall deeply in love.

Circumstances - and the sudden outbreak of World War II - drive them apart, but both continue to be haunted by memories of each other. When Noah returns home from the war years later, Allie is irrevocably gone from his life, but not from his heart.

Though Noah doesn't yet know it, Allie has come back to Seabrook, where they first fell in love. But now Allie is engaged to marry Lon, a wealthy soldier she met while volunteering in a GI hospital and Noah likewise has a casual affair with a widow Martha.

Decades later, a man reads from a faded notebook to a woman he regularly visits at her nursing home. Though her memory has faded, she becomes caught up in the fiery story of Allie and Noah - and for a few moments, she is able to relive the passionate, turbulent time when they swore they'd be together always.

My Life

A young woman comes to the fast-paced city of Manila to rid herself of too much time at home with her family. Still in her teens, Floi Pablo meets local boy Roduta at 65B. On the spot, senses that he and Floi are meant to be together. Though she is a struggling career teenager and he a medical student, over the course of one passionate and carefree night in the South, the two fall deeply in love.

Circumstances - and the sudden outburst of anger from Floi - drive them apart, but both continue to be haunted by memories of each other. When realizes it was all a test of tolerance, Floi is irrevocably gone from his life, but not from his heart.

Though doesn't yet know it, Floi is going to Cebu as well, where a convention shall bring them together. But now Floi is engaged to despising love, a decision she made after a gazillion heartbreaks and is officially dating his groupmate Crispy Nitz.

What happens next? ends up with Floi, of course. And Crispy Nitz? Contrary to Martha's decision to let go,

"I won't let you off the hook that easily..."

Uh, girl, wakee wakee up!!! What hook?!

If this post isn't bitchy, I don't know what is. Downright mean. But I wanna enjoy this, I'm on the other side of the table for once... Eff womanitarianism, like what I said before... [...]

*.* as if! @ 9:24:00 PM • • RBJ

Thursday, November 04, 2004

About two hours ago..

Dear baby brotherhood celebrated his 18th birthday.

But of course, I was too engrossed in my pseudo-suicidal drama to re-remember to greet him. Dear kuya's apartment was filled with baby brother's minion clad in their pencil-cut pants and combat boots. What a sight [glad they've all retreated to their own niches now]. It almost would have contributed to my wrist-lashing.

In fairness to their indoor Mardi Gras, BB's girlfriend stood out like a shiny pearl amongst seaweeds. He makes me so damn proud of his taste in women [as opposed to his taste in clothing].

No alcohol for this celebration to adulthood, though. They didn't seem to need some.

Did anyone notice this is the first time the P.S. was mentioned in this blog? P.S. nga e, Pierre Simon a.k.a. Post Script o Pahabol Sulat.

*.* as if! @ 1:44:00 AM • • RBJ

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Look at Me

I'm broken. Can you handle it?

What do you get from it, anyway?
You got us for a minute there; now, let us be happy.

Eff you. Karma catches up fast. Be very afraid.

Cebu chika to follow. I have to deal with this meddling asshole first.

*.* as if! @ 11:39:00 PM • • RBJ

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Cebu is...

Enough said.
Bwahaha... Kidding!^_^

A picture paints a thousand words. So let these speak...

"Wala kyo... Pilot namin brod!"
"Uh, siguro kame rin coz we wer on d same plane?"

Fate stepped in again. Lex and I arrived at Cebu on the same plane!
They missed their 6:30 flight. Galeng noh?

Taoist Temple on Beverly Hills

I gave the Kidney-shaped wooden blocks a shot and asked if I will go home to Manila with a boyfriend. Guess what it told me!^_^ [Mann, I'm fat]

Ana, Carla, Cha and Floi at Abuhan

Saturday night ball!!! One thing I hate about Cebu [perhaps the only thing] is their hairdressers are friggin' incompetent!!! There was this salon in front of Grand Hotel and we were pretty confident. But, an hour before the ball, they can't figure out what to do with our hair!!! So we hopped on a cab and scouted for a good salon and thank God found one near Capitol. Don't I look like a shiny trophy?^_^

UP delegation
We are not elitists nor purists!!! We're just... better. That's a fact. Get over it.^_^

The morning after at Midtown Hotel
After the ball that is! Notice my curly hair? It's my first time to see my hair like it. Am seriously considering a perm now.^_^

Vista Mar

I adore the beach! [Actually, I just do coz it's a reason for me to don my bikini. hehe] There is a seawall, though - no shore - and the sand was coarse which was okeiii coz I gave myself a foot scrub. hihihi.^_^

I wanna go baaaaack!!! Like, now na.^_^
Shout-out to Chevy for that half-hour overseas call while we were at the beach. Envy me, yet, Twin? :p


Ariane was such a lovely host. Our last night at Pipeline with Lex's friend and his girlfriend was such a blast! Vudu is a cross between Basement and Common Ground but with free entrance! I'm definitely going back soon. Hopefully, when I do, Lex and I will stay in the same hotel. [But different rooms! Bwahaha!] And hopefully, you would've swallowed your pride [and other stuff] by then. Hahaha! You actually thought I'm conservative?! Like, haller!!! Yoch galore!^_^

Apologies to Miss Tessa for keeping her waiting for... uh, three hours? *shame* Please do forgive this puny little girl... When I go back, no more conventions to stand in our way. Promise!^_^

Ton, my mann!!! Where could you have disappeared to at Vudu?! Yan and I hit the ledge for a sec and you were gone without a trace! We didn't even get to say goodbye...^_^

*.* as if! @ 8:35:00 PM • • RBJ


I'll be seeing you. Goodnight.

Find me here:


Palabras Finales

Remember me when you hear this

sleeps with butterflies ~ tori amos

Airplanes take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live?
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night?
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat?
I won't push you unless you have a net

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy

Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl, this girl

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy

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