You Are a Peppermint Cappuccino You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new. However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like. You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation. You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please What Kind Of Coffee Are You? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

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*.* as if! @ 9:23:00 PM • • RBJ

Question: How to tell when Floi is sinking? wilting? [read: miserable]

Answer: One Word: Chibits a.k.a. Chicharon Bituka.
Sold at P25/50g at Taft MRT station.

My gawd! I'm addicted to those eeky things. I've eaten it for 9 days now, every weekday on the way home from work. I haven't been going out anymore, that's why; time to take care of my health kunyari. Haha!

It's my comfort food. Back off!

what the hell. No one Ever Really Dies. :p


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*.* as if! @ 8:57:00 PM • • RBJ

Chevy was rushed to the E.R. a couple of days back due to rashes.

Last Thursday, I developed this rash on my nape which later on crept down to my back. Eeeewww!!! As in.

An imaginary string connecting me to my twin, by which I contracted the itching? ^_^

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*.* as if! @ 8:33:00 PM • • RBJ

My favorite month's coming to a close... Nothing interesting has happened yet.

Or so I think.

Bo begs to differ. ^_^

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*.* as if! @ 8:30:00 PM • • RBJ

Because I'm at a loss for words.

With Betan Brods and Sisses at Brod Denggoy's Birthday last July 2
[Uy, CLEAVAGE!!! :P]


With Betan Brod and Sisses at UPLB Beta Sigma Anniversary
[Grabe, LOYAL!!! *wearing a sorority shirt*]



Notice how my forehead had that not-so-flattering shine? Goes to show what time of the day night these were taken.^_^

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*.* as if! @ 8:29:00 PM • • RBJ

Watched this on DVD last night and it made me cry so hard, I was gasping for breath. Or perhaps it triggered the tears I've been holding back for long.

I especially felt Henry's [Adam Sandler] pain when Lucy [Drew Barrymore] visited the zoo after she had broken up with him. Do you know how much it hurts to be ignored [or not be recognized] by someone you have learned to love?

I do.

Don't you just wish you had short term memory disorder and you can start anew every morning you wake up?

I do.

Don't you wish you'd meet someone who will make you fall in love with him everyday for the rest of your life [i.e. never get tired of your extreme fickle-mindedness]?

I definitely do.

Waiting... Waiting... Waiting...

Coz sorry, Tiepee, I don't have the guts to do it.

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*.* as if! @ 7:52:00 PM • • RBJ

Someone dropped by at my house last Friday and brought me a long-stemmed blue rose. I wish I can appreciate the gesture but somehow, I don't. Coz I hate it when people treat me extra-nicely just coz they find out something's up with me. That's why I'm keeping IT under wraps, y'know. I'm still the same. So, I expect others not to change.


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*.* as if! @ 7:46:00 PM • • RBJ

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sorry... Can't give you time anymore... It's something I no longer have... It's either yes or no this time...


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*.* as if! @ 5:19:00 PM • • RBJ

Rev took this that night I slept at Soleil's room. She said she had to take a pic coz I had a smile on. Further, Soleil said while sleeping, I turned to her and muttered almost inaudibly,

"Mahal na kita, Lex."

Hahahaha!!! Cheesy! Not to mention hilarious!!! But, meaningful?

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Sorry the pic's shitty. Edited using paint. "How poor!", said Chevy. The Adobe won't open and I just have to post it now.

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*.* as if! @ 5:04:00 PM • • RBJ

... aren't the same without my dear twin sister and the Cousins Galore...[Oh lookee! CG Cousins Galore at CG Common Ground!]

I don't think I can ever have fun at CG again without 'em. Ooops! Lemme rephrase that. It sounds like an insult to TGIS. Hehehe! Well, let's just say I have a different kind of fun with the CG.

I miss you Chev! You better be back here soon. Or else... Hahaha! Sounds like a threat? Hahaha!!! It is. :p


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*.* as if! @ 4:42:00 PM • • RBJ

Whoa!

Someone stole the picture of Chevy and moi and put it on Ludwig's friendster. What a trip! Definitely gave me a good laugh. Whoever you are, you could've at least asked permission! I would've given it to you whole-heartedly. :p But then, how could you have thought of that?! I thought the greatest mastermind of all here is myself!

For the record, it's not Chevy. Actually, she told me about it; Ludwig asked her who uploaded the pic and all. Plus, we're partners-in-crime. She would've let me in on whatever she's planning.

It's definitely not me. Halleeeer! I don't even know what his new password is. Yep, I tried to open it but yep, he changed it. Plus, the hell I care about him anymore, anyway. I have someone new to stalk. Bwahahahaha!!!


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*.* as if! @ 4:45:00 PM • • RBJ

My long-lost twin-sistah. Taken a week ago at The Shang, two days before her departure.

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*.* as if! @ 12:01:00 PM • • RBJ

Things at its worst actually do get worse.

Aplastic Anemia

• a failure of the bone marrow to form enough blood cells.

• results from injury to stem cells. Normal stem cells divide and differentiate into all blood cell types. Thus, when stem cells are injured, there is a reduction in red blood cells, white blood cells, and platelets.

• can be caused by chemotherapy, drug therapy to suppress the immune system, radiation therapy, toxins such as benzene or arsenic, drugs, pregnancy, and congenital disorders. When the cause is unknown, it is then referred to as idiopathic aplastic anemia.

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Good Lord, give me strength.


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*.* as if! @ 11:42:00 AM • • RBJ

I hate thinking. Coz when I think, I think a lot. A little too much, actually.


Like, when I think of what happened last Saturday [which I choose not to blog about]*, I have this inkling that Lex was giving me away.

Like, he was practically pushing me to Mike.

Like, whatever I told Glen to let him read didn't matter.

Like, he just entrusted me to someone when he felt I made him feel that he wasn't good enough to be with me.

Like, our time together was a big lie.

Like, I'm a big joke.


That's just what I think. But I feel otherwise. Those last five minutes together? Felt like eternity. Sana maulit muli...

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*Which makes me a little guilty coz I'd love to dish out to Chevy every detail. [and I bet she's my number 1 subscriber] Oh well, I'll just email you, girl.


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*.* as if! @ 9:03:00 PM • • RBJ

Only time will reveal.

    Wait, Floi?

      I will, dear.

        Keep in touch. See you. *hug*


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*.* as if! @ 12:24:00 AM • • RBJ

What a tough week. Vic the boss is having a nervous breakdown. And I have done whorish stealing. Apologies.

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By the way, checked out my stalker stats and this certain someone got to my site by searching "floi specops" on google. Hmmm...

I.P.:203.177.112.113

But he could've been in a computer shop or something since it was the first time his I.P. registered.


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*.* as if! @ 3:28:00 PM • • RBJ

The reason the two weeks I shared with Lex is harder to forget compared to my other *ahem* flings is that he was able to treat me to a certain comfort level far higher than the "others" were able to. I was incredibly at ease in his company.

Did you know that he made me cry after our first "date"? I didn't blog about it and only Em, Angeli and Chevy - my three bessies - know about it. It was such a beautiful moment I wanted it to be special so there wasn't a press release but it doesn't matter now.

I was right there sitting on the passenger seat and we were cruising through EDSA when a tear trickled down my right cheek. He didn't notice of course but it was a tear of joy. I was absolutely happy. And the tears flowed even more when I reached home. Only one guy made that happen before. Astro. And how special he is. So, Lex would've been... could've been...

Oh well, he's gone now. Literally. So, what the hell. Life moves on. And the FFC network is growing. Hahaha!

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*.* as if! @ 3:26:00 PM • • RBJ

I was in Lb last night! I'm so happy.

It was the frat anniversary so it's a must-not-miss event. Unfortunately, I couldn't take a leave coz Dumz did and I let him. The original plan was he'll take a leave Friday and I will on Monday for the sorority anniv. Even less fortunately, THE BOSS set another press con on MONDAY and only announced it the monday before that. So, I felt my value in the company again and had to sacrifice my personal interest. I'll just go to Lb tomorrow for the mass.

Brod Ian of PCCR [Philippine College of Criminology! What the...?! I never heard about it myself before I met the brods] wanted to go to Lb with me and was I relieved! He is the latest member of FFC. hahaha! Of course I needed the ride. Only prob was he's not that used to long drives and Mandaluyong to LB IS a long drive. Include to that the traffic in SLEX. I had my seatbelt on. Hahaha!

He picked me up from the office at 730 and we arrived at Lb at 10. One of the most awkward rides I've ever been on. *sigh* I had no plans of riding with him back to Manila, actually. But being the courteous person I am, I had the feeling I had to. I was ready to go by 1am coz the sisses called it a night then but we left at 2 coz I knew Ian was already drunk. Heck, everyone knew! No one, of course wanted me to be driven by a drunk driver. So we stuck around to let him come to his senses. My heart was beating fast throughout the ride and was I relieved when I got home. Sheesh!


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*.* as if! @ 3:16:00 PM • • RBJ

Chevy left last night. She called me 5 minutes before boarding. I am sooo sad. I'm gonna miss that girl. We've gotten super close, no doubt. We had so much fun.

Imagine me. F-L-O-I spells FUN right? Well, clone that. Coz Chevy and I could've the same genetic structure. But then, it's okeiii. No regrets. Chevy's time here in the Philippines was well spent. :p

And she's in another LDR! [Long Distance Relationship] Good luck, girl!Ü

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Lexie left for Canada. No one knows when, just that she left already. Without telling anyone.

She's one messed up sister. First, the sisses tell me she's not registered for the sem. Then, she's hooked on illegal substances; often found loitering the infamous areas around the neighborhood. Which brings us to the fact that she didn't have her own place in Lb. And now, before anyone can confront her, she's gone.

I think she started breaking apart after Merky broke up with her. But even when they were still together, people including moi have been noticing that she's not emotionally stable. Just the way she manipulates Merky is proof enough.

Oh well, she's gone. No one can do anything now. Just hope she comes to her senses soon.


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*.* as if! @ 3:01:00 PM • • RBJ

6:00 pm ~~~ 7th note in Makati. What's up? Hush! Hush! Don't wanna be in
                          any trouble anymore.

7:30 pm ~~~ Krocodile Grill,GB3. Bloggers' Night. Finally! Table with red
                          balloon. Punta kayo!

9:00 pm ~~~ Camella in Las Piñas. Arturo's and Patrick's birthday
                          celebrations! Yay! TGIS will see Arturo again! Remember that
                          911 session TGIS had last May 30? Well, Arturo got his girl
                          pregnant and the girl didn't want him to see us. Insecure?! But it's
                          okeiii to see him tonight coz it's his birthday. :)

1:00 am ~~~ Common Ground. Post despedida for Chevy. Hahaha! Rossel,
                          Grace and Jamie. Cousins galore! Syanta, new friend, might be
                          there. Nice! Girls rock!

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*.* as if! @ 8:27:00 PM • • RBJ

I had quite a great time last night! As in, it was the ultimate gimik!

Left at 11pm for CG. Rossel and Grace were waiting outside. Chevy was still in Eastwood with Rjhai. The three of us went ahead, ordered a WengWeng, 2 Mai Tais and nachos. Funny coz Rossel got drunk a little too soon. We were gonna hit the dancefloor but it was waaay overcrowded. With flashes of the Ozone Bar incident in my head, we made our way out.

Walked through the streets of the beautiful Malate and bumped into Kyle, Jay and R.M. and what d'you know, they asked for Ludwig. Apparently, Lud told them he can't go with them coz he was gonna be with us. Liar! But what's new.

It was Cyrille's birthday and the three were there at the party in Padi's but they walked around. Hmmm... three on three. Would've been fun to hang out with them but I was thinking I've had enough of hanging out with San Beda brods. I feel bad, though, coz I promised dear sweet Felisa I was gonna teach her how to do the creepwalk that's why I was gonna go to Cy's birthday. Well, I can teach her anytime but Chev's leaving on Friday. [Cy and Felisa are Maessie's friends who were with us on that fateful night when a momentous event took place at Padi's. Felisa is also Wencie's, a San Beda brod, girlfriend.]

The three of us kept walking, without any destination at all when two homosexual guys called us. They were looking for girls who can work in a Korean restaurant to entertain the guests or something. We laughed it off. So, we've got Korean beauty, eh? Sandara is that you?Ü

We decided to get some San Migs in Deco Bar just to chill. I'm not used to drinking beer anymore but I wanna ride with the two. As it turned out, the beer was merely a bait. You see, we were trying to drink the beer when the waiter brought three Margaritas to our table. Compliments of the house!^_^ Smart kids that Rossel and Grace.Ü Then, a Hindu-looking man who turned out to be Singaporean and whose name is Sam, approached us and told us that we can order anything we want. Hahaha! He owns the place. Their Mai Tai sucks, though. Too strong.

We spotted Chevy with Rjhai through the glass windows, made our "escape" and went back to Common Ground without Rjhai. This time, we didn't care about the crowd. It was 3 and we haven't even danced yet! In a little while, the waiters gave us the two-thumbs-up, meaning we can hit the ledge coz Aries the manager is out. Woohoo! Go Chevy! Go Chevy! Hahaha! Walang ganito sa states.^_^

We slipped out for some puffs. We got this table but we were one seat short. This guy was standing by one and I told him,"Excuse me. Is this seat taken?" without even looking up. He said,"No" and at that moment, I looked up and went, "OMG! Albert!" Bes's brods were there. Four of them. I was so hyped up! I mean, this IS a small world we're living in. The three had to go but I stuck around to catch up with Albert. Martha, an Am-girl beside us on the bar, was obviously drunk and treated us to Kamikazee shots. This is the life. Hahaha!

Closing time came at 530 and we were the last to leave. Tommy, probably the richest alumni of UPLB, offered to drive me home in his ultra luxurious Lincoln SUV. We were on SLEX and I told them we can take the Sucat exit. Ovi was driving then and he didn't take it. Then, passed went Alabang and Filinvest exits and I realized, Man! I'm going to LB with them! Floi was kidanapped!

Luckily, their org was having their final rites and Bes didn't go home to Antipolo. I slept at her place. It was soooo surreal! I couldn't believe it up to now. One minute I'm in Malate and in LB on the next! Woke up at 12, bonded with Bes, ate at Mcdo, dropped by the brods' workshop at Marvic's and met up with Tommy at Vega to go back to Manila. The rain was heavy but it didn't matter coz I was contentedly dry and comfy at the backseat of a luxury SUV!^_^

They dropped me off at Festival Mall where we saw Alessandra de Rossi and Kathleen Hermosa. They're both prettier in person... To think I was just watching Alex on Extra Challenge last week. Anyweiz, one advantage of getting off a glam truck is that you feel mega glam yourself. Haba ng hair ko, tsong! The entrance guard even smiled and greeted me without bothering to check my bag. Hehehe...

I took a van home and, hear I am. Need I say I haven't showered yet?Ü Ewww... Pero DDG pa rin. That's Drop-Dead Gorgeous to you. :p
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Uuuuy... It's 8-8 today! My favorite day of the year! I dunno why. Maybe because on this day four years ago, I had my first boyfriend. Yiheee... o^_^o Actually, August is my favorite month. I dunno why also. Maybe because so many memories took place on this month. Speaking of which, Pop said Astro called. I asked Astro but he said he didn't. Who could that be?! The 13th is drawing near. Astro and I should be celebrating our 2nd year. Bitter! Hahaha! Not.


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*.* as if! @ 8:02:00 PM • • RBJ

If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

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My cousin dear Ate Greyz read my blog and messaged this to me on friendster. Actually, this is one of my favorites by Neruda. But I have been steering clear of any form of mushiness ever since the beginning of the end for Lex and me. No to poetry, love quotes, text messages, sappy movies, even Wave 89.1. I don't know if you noticed, but I changed my music background to that of an independent woman's who can just walk away from heartaches. Call it mind-setting. I can get through this. In one piece.


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*.* as if! @ 9:01:00 PM • • RBJ

This is Chevy's last weekend in the Philippines. She's flying back to California on the 13th.

Oh... I never realized it but I'm dreading that day. You won't believe how close we've gotten in her two-month stay. It's even less believable considering how we met. We're just too alike. I've never met anyone I have so much in common with. We call each other Twins now. Not sisters, though. Twin ex's. Lolz.

I'll have to cut this drama for the mean time coz I have to get fixed. I'm meeting up with Chevy and her cousins Rossel and Grace in Malate. CG as usual. We were there last night too but I'll blog about that later. Gonna hit the ledge one last time. This is gonna be the last dance for us. *tear*

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Lex used to tell me to know my enemies. He's not amused with my friendship with Chevy. In the end, after looong discussions, he said, "On the other hand, don't they say to keep your friends close and your enemies closer?" He's one sicko.


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*.* as if! @ 8:53:00 PM • • RBJ

I should stop counting, I know. But what the heck, I want to ascertain my elastic limit.

Last night, I was standing on the corner of Quirino and Taft Avenues, right outside the Marc office, waiting for Tine and Lara, holding my cig on the left hand while texting with the right when whoa! A man probably no older than 20 tried to grab my cellphone. Everything happened so fast I cannot recount it in full detail but all I know is I was shaking as the man ran away. I looked down and saw the cellphone still in my hand. Imagine that grip!

I was so rattled I wanted to cry. On impulse, guess who I called. Him. It rang but he didn't answer. After the busy tone did I only realize that it rang. It rang. But, he didn't answer.

It was only a few minutes later did I have a grander realization. In my time of distress, I called him. He has earned my trust in a matter of two weeks, 7 dates and less than a hundred text messages. Houston, we definitely have a problem.

Epilogue: Had that man taken my cellphone, I would've died on the spot. My cell is my life! Call me materialistic or such but well, emphatize! This is my 4th cell already! I guess I was lucky this time. Very lucky. Lucky me.


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*.* as if! @ 12:12:00 PM • • RBJ

I find myself on his Friendster profile, staring at his pic, browsing through his friends which I never thought of doing before. I haven't even viewed his profile after adding him. I find myself reading testimonials those girls wrote for him and those he wrote for them. I find myself missing him so much, wishing I could see his smirks again. I find myself calling his number although I know some machine-generated voice will tell me "The number you have dialled is either unattended or out of coverage area. Please try your call later." I find myself confiding in a brod that we have gotten so close over the three weeks that he has become a part of my daily routine without me realizing it. It hasn't even been three weeks. Four days short.

Maybe he met someone new last Saturday. It WAS an acquaintance party and there ARE a lot of hot chicks in San Beda Med School. Doesn't doctors end up with doctors? Oh shit, me and my paranoia. And this is just day number two. I'm sure it'll get harder.


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*.* as if! @ 11:25:00 PM • • RBJ

There is something terribly wrong with me. A perfectly good man came into my life and I pushed him away, but not before throwing at him the worst insults imaginable. I didn't even give him the chance to explain. But then, he didn't actually ask for it.

Loiza said, "Just wait, don't search. It comes when you least expect it." Lex did! In a merciful attempt by fate to make me happy, it sent Sis Cha to convince me to go to 65B for the frat anniversary. I didn't even plan on sticking around. But I did and found myself in the same table as the San Beda brods. A lot offered to drive me home but out of practicality, I chose to go with Lex. Fate has quite a humor and sprinkled a little pepper into our "first acquaintance". Some girl driving a van added some scratchy designs to Lex's Mazda. Nothing serious but an event Lex and I always laughed at thereafter. Parked in front of the house, Lex offered to get coffee first. We made do with Select in Caltex Times since it was already 3 in the morning and Starbucks was definitely not an option. I had a great time talking to him. He did too, I guess. That started a series of wonderful times together.

Lex texted after our first gimik together: "Nytnyt,floi n tnx.. Mem0ries ds nyt hv gven me..Bt i hpe tht d best s yet 2 cum..Cya n ma drims..Ü @ 17-July-2004 05:21:33" Yes Lex, I still have it on my sim with a lot of nice messages from you - messages I read every night before I sleep in a successful attempt to let go of my fears. But what happened last Saturday? Don't you want to enlighten my dark thoughts? I do not want to think that the "triple ouch..-moronic p.a." I received from you after you read my blog that Sunday morning would be the last I'd ever hear from you. I have been going out of my mind for the past couple of days because you haven't been texting me and you won't answer my calls. Then your phone became out of reach and I heard, yes I already have, that you changed your number.

I was gonna send you a message on Friendster in an attempt to reach out but what do you know...



So I guess I will have to wait till fate brings us together again. If you're reading this, just want you to know I'm sorry and I'm still looking forward to the best that is to come.

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*.* as if! @ 2:28:00 PM • • RBJ

Unsurprisingly, I'm upset and I can't sleep. Plus the fact that I was asleep THE WHOLE DAY to prepare for tonight's gimik that did not take place and to keep myself from staring at my cellphone waiting for a text from Lex that I did not receive. Argh. 'Nuff of that.

So anyway, I got nothing to do but go online. I don't like what's on TV. Too fidgety to settle with a book. I don't wanna chat. Not in the mood to try to make friends with anyone. I've even had enough of Friendster. I dunno. I never thought I'd say that. Really. 10 months of addiction and I just got over it. Galeng! Now if only the same would happen with the boys I encountered in my life.

Hmmm...

I took this online IQ test. I don't believe in it. I mean, c'mon, these online tests aren't THAT accurate. But my result is not bad. Lookee:



I remember one instructor [whose name I'd rather not divulge to protect her credibility] asked the class once why IQ is called such when it is not a quotient at all. FYI Miss, IQ is the constant ratio of mental age [MA] divided by chronological age [CA] with the formula IQ = 100(MA/CA). That instructor had a low IQ without doubt. Tsk!

Anyweiz, basing on my online result, my mental age is (129•19)/100 which yields 24.51 rounding up to 25. This means that at 19, I have the mental capacity of a 25-year-old. Hmmm... a guy thought out loud just a few days ago how he wished I were 25 just so he can date me. Hmmm... Interesting coincidence.

My IQ is fairly high I must say. But like what I said, I'm not convinced these online tests are accurate. One thing certain about me without having to take any tests is that I have a low EQ. Huhu. Can't you tell?

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*.* as if! @ 2:48:00 AM • • RBJ