How he gave you palpitations everytime he crossed your mind?
How he gave you reason to get up every morning and go to bed early at night [only to doze off late]?
How happy he made you every time you hear his voice or you receive a text message from him?
How you wished you could just blurt out how you felt to his face but couldn't?
Remember your very first crush?
I do.
Coz that's exactly how I feel now.
I feel like a giggly high school girl with pigtails and mary janes.
Funny, I know. It's probably the funniest thing TGIS would ever hear.
Oh you have no idea how frustrated I feel right now. For once, after a long time, I am doing nothing to get the person I want. Not that I don't want to - I'm a person who knows exactly what she wants and how to get it - but because I can't. There's too much at stake. At my present stature, a good reputation is much too precious.
I regard my situation with utmost hatred and disgust. I hate being under the bonds of norms and standards. I detest following social convention. I am a rebel, after all.
But this isn't a choice I have to make. It's an order I have to heed. It's a small playground we're moving in. The players are one and the same.
But because he's different, I will wait. He's worth the wait... and prayers... and wishes upon the stars... and coins thrown to wells... and cigarette sticks last lit...
Just to let him know how I feel.
*.* as if! @ 10:15:00 AM • • RBJ
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