there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me

If you can't take the heat, stay out of the kitchen.
Don't effin' blame the chef!

Friday, February 25, 2005

Baywatch Manila

I wore a bikini to work today.

Before you react, let's elaborate point by point.

Point A: I wore a bikini as undergarments. I can't help it; summer is seeping through me. I desire for nothing more than the beach!

I HAVE to feel my new pink striped bikini. I wore a white top and the statement is purrfect! I feel so pretty and it's not just because I'm wearing pink.^_^

The saying is right. If you want to look good on the outside, you'll have to feel good on the inside. In my case, it's literal.

Point B:I had to report to work on a holiday because I have too much backlog.

Plus, my critical and techie mind is required for the office construction. Yes, the office relocation is FINALLY on the move.

I also had to help pack the office equipment and supplies. I not only extend a hand to company; I extend a whole arm. I just love my job.

And... what's that Lex said the night before we went to Cebu?

Packing is good. Aye, packing is good.

Now, let's go pack.

*.* as if! @ 5:44:00 PM • • RBJ

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Still flaming at 40

I don't get it.

Why did Gabriel want to liberate Mammon to earth? Could the Angel of God have developed a liking for the Son of Lucifer?

I was too focused on Keanu to pay attention. Damn! He's the hottest 40-year-old ever. Ay pappy!^_^

P.S. When you watch Constantine, stick around to the end of the credits. Just do, oki?

*.* as if! @ 4:17:00 PM • • RBJ

Monday, February 14, 2005

Happy Valentine's Day

Free is all you gotta be
Dream dreams no one else can see
Sometimes ya wanna run away
But ya never know what might be comin' `round your way
Ya ya ya

On a day like today
The whole world could change
The sun's gonna shine
Shine thru the rain
On a day like today
Ya never wanna see the sun go down
Ya never wanna see the sun go down

Somewhere - there's a place for you
I know that you believe it too
Sometimes if you wanna get away
All ya gotta know is what we got is here to stay
All the way

On a day like today - the whole world could change
The sun's gonna shine - shine through the rain
On a day like today - no one complains
Free to be pure - free to be sane
On a day like today
Ya never wanna see the sun go down
Ya never wanna see the sun go down

Free is all we gotta be
Dream dreams no one else can see
But ya never know what might be comin' for you and me
Ya it's gonna be

On a day like today

*.* as if! @ 6:12:00 PM • • RBJ

Saturday, February 12, 2005

No Room for a BF

Last night was one of the best gimiks ever. Ms. Spontaneity has been resurrected.

My date didn't go well. It was actually great.o^_^o

He turned out to be one of the most interesting people I've agreed to meet up with a.k.a. Eyeball. To start off, his name is Nikolaos Dritsopolous. Or something. His dad is Greek and has never set foot on the Philippines. He moved to the Philippines in 1991 when his parents separated and he went to live with his mom who is a native of Mindoro. Anyway, that's enough for his bio.

I first saw him at the sisses' gig at Xaymaca. He's the bassist of Hemp Republic. I was chatting with Bunny and Al when Niko overheard me ask some stuff from Al. Niko handed me a folded bond paper. I didn't even get his name that time. Then, he messaged me on Friendster asking for my number and coffee. I obliged. It's always nice to be around UPLB peeps.

I did a background check with Myla who's my blocmate who's the roommate of Lia who's a member of UP Jammers which Niko is also a member of. She couldn't believe I'm meeting up with him coz he just got stabbed last Saturday in the wee hours of the morning. I had no idea `bout it so I figured he's well now.

We decided to meet at Starbucks GB3. Well, there's a reason why it's always nice to be with UPLB peeps. It's because there's that instant connection, like you've known each other for a long time. It's fun to discover common friends and wonder why you never took notice of each other on campus. There was no dull moment over our caramel frappes.

I went to the washroom and on my way back, I heard someone call out,"Floi! Floi!" WTF?! It's Joweinie! Last time I saw her was in 2000 before she graduated from SJA. I've been updated about her for the past year, though, coz I found her blog. Her blog's definitely one of my fave reads.

After our caffeine-fix, Niko and I decided to get our alcohol-fix. We ended up at Absinth coz the cowgirls appealed to him. Then, Syanta texted she and her cousin Mikee's going to CG. I told her it's about time we conquer Absinth. Niko got along well with the two, too. Ahhh... I was with an ideal crowd. Y'know, no one needed baby-sitting.

It turned out, Syanta and Brian broke up last weekend. Well, the complications of a real relationship got them. `Twas sad coz Syanta met John through Brian. We kinda became the CG couples.

When the DJ started to play old school, we transferred to Temple. WTF?! John was there! Needless to say, so was Brian. This is such a small world we're moving in. By the end of the night, Miss Match fixed Syanta and Brian. They're back together. Phew.

John, on the other hand, had some beef going. This girl, his neighbor in San Fran's cousin, tagged along that night and got drunk. The guy threatened he'd shoot John's ass if anything happened to the tag-along girl. John took it seriously and was talking about getting the guy murdered by some NPA relatives he has. That was scary. We decided it was time to call it a night.

Yeah, I know. I'm such a biatch for turning a date into a full-blown party. But, Niko and I both had fun and we're pretty certain there would be more of that in the future.

Tonight, I'm off to CG with TGIS. Niko wanted to go but, uh, I don't think he's prepared for what he might see yet.*wink*

Lovapalooza 2 will be held tonight too. I don't even want to think of it coz it reminds me of Astro. A year ago, I had the chance to watch BoyzIIMen live but I let it pass coz I was so much in love with him. I had to be with my boyfriend on Valentine's, of course.

This is the first Valentine season in four years Ima be celebrating without a Valentine... and I couldn't care less.^_^

*.* as if! @ 9:29:00 PM • • RBJ

Friday, February 11, 2005


I smell of Salonpas but my stiff neck is even... stiffer. Bull!

Kung kelan naman may date ako. Alam nyo naman lahat siguro na I don't get date invitations that much lately. When I finally got one, I'm going to make a good impression by smelling like his lola.


*.* as if! @ 5:01:00 PM • • RBJ

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Internet Betan

Got this from the frat's webby.

Little Betan says: Daddy,how was I born?
Daddy Betan says: Ok,my son,i guess one day you will need to find out anyway!

Well, you see your Mom and I first got together in a chat room on Yahoo. Then I set up a date via e-mail with your mom and we met at a cyber-cafe. We sneaked into a secluded room, where your mother agreed to a download from my hard drive. As soon as I was ready to upload, we discovered that neither one of us had used a firewall, and since it was too late to hit the delete button, nine months later a blessed little Pop-Up appeared and said: You've Got Male!

Made me remember how Ludwig and I met. It's been almost a year now... Betan_belle hasn't visited the chatrooms since. *sigh*

*.* as if! @ 6:10:00 PM • • RBJ

Saturday, February 05, 2005

Birthday Photos

January 29, 2005
65B, Pasig

I left the house looking like this -->

and came home looking like this -->

hahaha! wasted. Here are some of what happened in between:

Now, that's what you call a good blowjob.^_^

row 1: moi with elcid and cha
row 2: moi with len and nadette
row 3: moi with andy; the group

reluctantly kissed by val; being harrassed by elcid

Happy Birthday, Floi!o^_^o

*.* as if! @ 7:31:00 PM • • RBJ

Maternal Affection

I've never had a good relationship with my mother. All those times that I thought we were finally on the same wavelength, we weren't. Those were mere instances that we mutually decided on a ceasefire.

We were getting our Saturday dose of Showbiz chika when it all started. She invited me to get a facial to which I replied that I don't have the budget for that now. She then launched into this long chain of insults and questions as to where my salary goes. I won't hold it against her, I admit I do have a serious problem in spending my money. Four days after payday and I'm broke.

I thought that it is typical of wives and mothers to whine and nag. At this point, my mother is beyond typical. She's, without doubt, the worst whiner and nagger.

I've dealt with her for twenty years. To expect her to change now or anytime soon is to expect red to become blue. So, I developed this weapon of defense against her episodes of lunacy.

One thing I seem never to be prepared for is her insults against me as a person and as a woman. I can let other people insult me beyond reason but one thing I just can't swallow is my mother thinking less of me. She actually believes her beloved daughter is a whore and makes the most naive decisions.

My mother is the only person who is successful in making me feel bad about myself and I hate her for it.

Before leaving the house to cool off at my brother's place, I told her something that really broke my heart. I saw her hand flying to my cheek which I involuntarily dodged. All throughout the argument, not a single tear trickled from my eyes but they rivered out as I say, "Eventually, you're gonna grow old alone because you've pushed as all away. Be happy alone."

*.* as if! @ 5:30:00 PM • • RBJ

Friday, February 04, 2005

Shake My Hand

Eight Months

Of what you ask? That's for me to know.*wink*
But if you knew, I swear you'll congratulate me.

*.* as if! @ 4:45:00 PM • • RBJ

Walks to Remember

I braved the journey from Crossing to Gale to meet up with Cha last night. The noise, the heat, the dust... I succumbed to it all. I have no other idea how to get there, anyway.

We went to Mt. Carmel Shrine in New Manila to extend our condolences to Sis Cleofe. Her hubby, former presiding justice of the Court of Appeals Eubolo Verzola passed away due to a lingering heart ailment.

When we arrived, we entered the first memorial chapel we saw. We didn't recognize anyone so we hung around, hoping to see the sis. A few minutes later, I asked Cha if she'd like to view the casket. Right at that moment, we heard a woman whisper, "sila ba yung mga kaklase ni __?__" to another. Then, Cha pulled me outside. It turned out we were at the wrong wake!

We were still giggling when we found Justice Verzola's wake. I was teary-eyed as I beso the sis. She must have wondered why I was so affected with his husband's death.

We stayed for a little over an hour.

Then we decided to walk the way to Gilmore. Cha lived at 5th St. in her childhood and she was in a nostalgic mood.

We passed by Syglo, Will's videoke bar, in Broadway. Would you believe? I thought Broadway and GMA 7 Studios are one and the same. Tsk tsk tsk! Ignoramus extraordinaire.

We passed by Community of Learners where Cha spent her pre-U.P. years. Now I know why she can deal with me quite well; she had first-hand interaction with special children.

In the cab back to Gale, I received a call from someone who claimed he still loves me but kept on calling me fRoi. Pshhh... yeah right. Ano ka, jap?!?

Cha and I decided to coffee too late. We made up our minds after getting off the cab at Gale. So, we walked all the way to Starbs Podium. No complaints, though. We had a ten-thousand-words-per-minute chikahan galore.

By midnight, we decided to wrap up. We walked together to Megamall. Hey ladies, you want your eye candy to notice you? Ignore him. But of course, this only works when you've been acquainted and are in the same social circle. Won't work in a bar, sorry.

From Megamall, I walked back to Crossing. Mann, I realized I am rather audacious. I passed through Bldg. B's side path where a group of construction workers are, well, working.

I rode an ordinary bus to Coastal Mall because I was waiting for a MIA bus far too long. From KFC, I walked to Tambo where I finally got on my last ride for the night, a Zapote jeep.

Here's the catch:

All these I did on my three-inch stilletos. I swear I heard my feet heave in relief when I got home. I massaged cooling gel on them before putting them to sleep. I pray that appeased them coz I'm afraid that they would curse me until my dying day if they could only speak.

*.* as if! @ 2:15:00 PM • • RBJ

Thursday, February 03, 2005

FED up

                          I need a massage.

Or vitamin supplements.

Or a boyfriend.

Or join LA [Love-a-holics Anonymous]

My gratuities to the Bitch Goddess for my new wallpaper. Cosmo Women rock! \m/

*.* as if! @ 5:50:00 PM • • RBJ

Tuesday, February 01, 2005


Sana masabi sa awit kong ito
Lahat ng ninanais nitong puso ko
Sana saan man patungo sa buhay
May pag-ibig, may pag-asa, may saya at saysay
Sana sa bawat sandali'y matikman pa
Sarap ng pagsasama at simpleng ligaya
Tara na, sakyan lang. Malay mo...
Andyan lang, andyan lang...
Ang hinahanap mo.

*.* as if! @ 1:14:00 PM • • RBJ


I'll be seeing you. Goodnight.

Find me here:


Palabras Finales

Remember me when you hear this

sleeps with butterflies ~ tori amos

Airplanes take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live?
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night?
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat?
I won't push you unless you have a net

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy

Look good from on the ground
I fear with pins and needles around
We may fall then stumble
Upon a carousel
It could take us anywhere

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl, this girl

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly boy

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