Three and counting...

kamusta???....nga pala pakisabi kay carlo belated h-bday. uhmmmm...sensiya kana....pinipilit ko pero di ko kaya. gusto kita tawagan kaso wag na.....may mga sasabihin lang ako sayo. na miss kita! yeah totoo miss kita...sobra. pinipilit kong ibalik yung friendship pero i know malabo na....pansin ko rin naman na umiiwas ka...pero ok lang naiintindihan kita. pinipilit ko ngang isipin na wala naman talagang nagbago..pero obviously meron. ayoko lang din tanggapin sa sarili ko...sa simula pa lang ayokong tanggapin na minahal kita...yeah minahal kita. in a short period of time minahal kita. ayokong tanggapin kasi i don't wanna get hurt pero andito na eh nasaktan na rin ako...eh di sinabi ko na sayo. sa rum...pag pumapasok ka i have to pretend na masaya ako...na ok lang ako...na everything is fine.....though d truth is hindi...hay....pero don't worry walang nakakaalam. i just wanted you to take gud care of urself...thank you for the times u've shared wid me....for the times u've made my day complete...thanks for ol the care...if i cud only bring back the time...sana kaibigan pa rin kita hanggang ngayon. pero that's life....eniweiz advance HAPI B-DAY!!! pag nagkita tayo on-line hindi mo kailangang umiwas...pretend na wala kang nabasa...please...and i promise u this will be the last time na paguusapan natin to. Take Care! from now on wala akong kilalang ludwig....meron lang akong on-line friend na ugly_boy_hir ang id. promise ko yan sayo....ayoko rin ng naiilang ka....;) pa kiss na lang....mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Please tell me this is a joke. Pretty pleeeease. Someone? Aaaargh!

Why the hell does reading this bring tears to my eyes? Coz stupid me agreed to meet up up with him last night? Coz stupid me believed him still when he told me he love me? Coz stupid me is holding on no matter how hard I try to move on? Coz stupid me is being such a hypocrite to myself and to everyone else? This blog should be entitled "The STUPIDEST girl to hold a Martini..."

What kind of cruel human being would break three [?! and that's only those that I know of] innocent girls' hearts in 2 months? TWO MONTHS! TWO MONTHS! And now, someone informed me he's making his moves on a Sis's daughter. Yet, he keeps tellin' me he just ain't ready to have girlfriend again. How I love to pick on his brain, shove it under a microscope and decipher whatever's going on in that head of his. GAWD!
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I just remembered. I saw on this girl's Friendster that she's from QC. Ludwig cancelled our plan one time because he's going to visit a friend in QC. Hmmm...

Guns and Mistresses

Traffic was hellish on the road home this morning. Turns out a guy shot himself in a car parked on the roadside coz his wife found out he had a mistress. The wife and mistress made him choose. Braindead Ludwig insisted that a celebrity was causing the commotion. It was a celebrity alright, for a day. Sure will hit headlines coz of the number of media people present.

Hmmm... what if Chevy and I pushed through with our plan? Would Ludwig get a gun and do the human race a big favor by removing defective DNA from the gene pool?

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*.* as if! @ 6:50:00 PM • • RBJ