It's funny how people assume you're pregnant when you visit a gynecologist. Some people can be so naive.

Anyway, I just had my very first sonogram a.k.a. ultrasound. I must say, if you were a virgin, it is NOT advisable to undergo it. It is so friggin' painful and uncomfortable! Or maybe I just wasn't in the right hands. I didn't have any choice. I'm becoming desperate and Mum's ob-gyne doesn't hold clinic on weekends. I had to settle for that old man whose name I can't even remember.

Here's the funny thing. I haven't had my period in four months [i.e. the last time was in December] but I'm NOT pregnant AND my system is healthy. The former I was quite confident about but the latter was what I was worried about. Mum had an inverted uterus and it's said to be hereditary.

But wait, if I haven't had menstruation for four months and there weren't any suspicious-looking mass of blood or the like, it only means one thing: I HAVE NOT BEEN OVULATING.

What does that make me? Uh... [with shaking voice] babababarren? infertile?

I want to cry. I might not want to have babies soon but I want to have babies SOMEDAY!

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*.* as if! @ 11:15:00 AM • • RBJ