I am surrounded with broken-hearted people. People don't seem to want to do anything but sulk - sulk over break-ups, sulk over unrequited love, sulk over what-might-have-beens. Sigh... Just when I've gotten over doing that. Actually, I don't think I've ever done that. I go out and live a normal life as if I didn't have my heart trampled on at all. No one notices I am hurting until I open my mouth.

Ironically, these people were the same ones who were pressuring me to let go, move on, get a life... the works! I, on the other hand, am not mean enough to say "Right back at ya!" or "See what I mean?". I'm being considerate and tolerant of their behavior which I expected them to do while I was pouring my heart out to them. That is what a friend is for, right?

I'm not bragging or anything but I guess I'm better at healing myself than anyone gives me credit for. Wait, I AM bragging! This is my blog and im'a brag if I want to.

People may think I'm pathetic in dealing with heartbreaks because I'm vocal about my feelings, i.e. how I feel is "out there". You see, I believe that pain and frustration is easier dealt with when affirmed.

Affirmation is the first step to acceptance and acceptance leads to realizations. One day, you'll wake up and be able to say with all honesty that you're over him/her. Let me rephrase that. One day you'll wake up and be able to say with all honesty that you can move on without him/her.

Moving on and getting over someone are two different things. I think everybody moves on after a heartbreak but nobody ever gets over his/her loved one. It's like a "keloid" [I have no idea and I don't friggin' care what the medical term for that is. Y'all know what I'm talking about]

A "keloid" is a scar whose wound didn't actually heal. The skin regenerates, closing up the wound. Thus, physically, the wound characterized by the break on the skin has been healed. But, technically, it hasn't because underneath the skin, there is still a breakage in the tissue. Whatever. You all SHOULD know what I'm talking about by this point.

Anyway, moving on is the regeneration of the skin and getting over the person is the breakage in the tissue.

But like, the "keloid", not everyone has it while some are more prone to it. You're smart enough to figure out what it implies.

As for me, I'm keloid-al. But, who goddamn cares, anyway? Just felt like saying so. T'was just me being vocal and pathetic and "out there".

I've come to the part on this post where I've mustered enough annoyance to want to scream at their faces.

"Who's pathetic now, huh?!"

I should've their preachings and insults but I didn't and well, let's just say I'm more than happy that they had a chance to know how it feels to be hurt. It also helps to realize that at 19, I'm wiser than some mid-20 [even late-20] people.

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*.* as if! @ 1:04:00 PM • • RBJ