Just a friend, Floi. Just a friend.
Rainbow (noun)
1. an arc of colored light in the sky caused by refraction of the sun's rays by rain.
2. an illusory hope
Like Tiepee's, my rainbow is fading. [If it hasn't faded all out yet] I don't know if it is my excessive vulnerability or just plain stupidity but I feel awfully misled by BND's actions.
He must have not meant to but well, his intentions were not clear. [to me] Maybe I just assumed too much. Leave it to me to be assuming.
Guys I like shouldn't be nice to me unless they want to reciprocate how I feel. Otherwise, I end up like this.
Detraumatized
With all the terrible things that happened between Ludwig and me, could anyone blame me for being distrustful of San Beda brods? I am not judgemental nor do I stereotype but something about meeting up with another Bedan brod stirred up paranoia in me.
He was late. I almost left had he not texted me that he was already on the way. He kept texting someone all through the night. He said his friends are drinking in Cavite urging him to go. But of course he didn't
For the mercy of God, my head's still filled with memories of Ludwig. Everything I do with Lex [new brod] reminds me of Ludwig. Heck, everything I do with or without Lex still reminds me of Ludwig. Sheesh. I'm so unfair.
Lex is right; I oughtta get myself treated by a shrink.
*.* as if! @ 5:21:00 PM • • RBJ
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