ghosts

i am barely breathing and i can't find you
don't know who i'm kidding imagining you care
well, i could stand here waiting
a fool for another day
i don't suppose it's worth the price
it's worth the price
the price that i won't pay

carrie was right. our lives are haunted. by our pasts. that song? reminds me dumaguete [not the place; the man in my past]. can't believe i still have hang-up's concerning the guy. he was the first to make me feel like a woman. the FIRST. i have to admit, i do doubt if there were feelings involved in our relationship . but, i can't seem to get him out of my system. i just can't. sorry, baby, i can't. i mean, the guy is married. and he practically shagged [very politically-incorrect] every human with boobs and a hole. he just made me special in a way no one can even come close to. NO ONE. again, sorry, baby.

it only costs a peso...

to make me smile...

missin u s worse dan bein blind...
lyk paralysis it criples d mind
lyk death it kils d hart...
lyk lonlines it tears my world apart...
damn! I MISS U A LOT!!!

a text message from roselle. i won't be forgotten after all! it really is too bad i didn't get to see her last friday. hope to see mah gurl soon.

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*.* as if! @ 11:34:00 PM • • RBJ